Hard decisions

It was hard getting up this morning. So hard that I went back to sleep as soon as I turned off the alarm. I have been so tired the whole week but don't know why. I need the weekend.

We had a meeting with my boss yesterday and it went great, and not so great. The good thing is that they want to hire me when my mentor retires in the end of September. The bad thing is that it's not full time, only 60% and I won't be able to live on that kind of money. I have to talk to my case worker about that next wednesday. And May 25th we are having another meeting with my boss so I guess we'll talk about it with her as well. I hope we can figure something out so I get to be there full time because I like that place a lot. But I have to be able to pay my bills too.

I went to a parent-teacher conference with Maja yesterday and as always it was all good. She is between 85% - 100% in all classes but gym class. There they are still going by how well they could swim in third grade and she had a hard time with learning how to swim. I think they should be going by what she has done this semester but I guess not.

Today I got a lot to do at home, I was to tired to do it yesterday because I got home late from the parent-teacher conference. I can't wait for tonight when the kids have gone to bed so I can curl up in bed with J and watch some tv shows, be close and just let go of everything I'm thinking about with money and all that.

Time for a meeting

As usual I woke Leo up at 6.30 am so he has time for a shower before school and didn't think about that they are going to the bath-house so he's showering there, so he could stay in bed for another 30 minutes. Insted I went to wake up J and stayed in bed longer than I planed. But its so nice to curl up against him.

Today after my internship I'm taking the bus to the store and then home to drop everything off. After that there is a parent-teacher conference with Maja. I already know that everything is fine but it's one of those things where you as a parent just have to do it. That means that I won't have time to do laundry today but so be it. I got the whole weekend later to do it.

We went to bed late so I'm not too fresh today. So I hope I have time after to curl up on the couch. I did it yesterday but the phone kept ringing and buzzing so I didn't get much rest. Better luck today.

Yesterday Maja was shopping for presents with my aunt. My aunt couldn't come when we celebrated Majas birthday so they went down town yesterday insted. Maja picked three books and some felt pens.

Today my case worker comes to my internship as well. He does it every wednesday. I think it's a bit to often, we don't have that much to talk about when everything is going just fine. I don't think anyone else would come to the meeting either. I do need to inform him on when I'm taking my summer leave so I guess I'll do that today.

Shit happens

What a bad start this day was. Up when the alarm went off and wake up Leo so he has time for a shower before school. Then back in to the bedroom to wake up J. Curl up close to him and I fall a sleep! I wake up when he gets up to get a shower and thinking that I will only stay one more minute, falls back to sleep and wakes up 7.30 am. Then there was no time to sit at the computer. Since J was in the shower I couldn't get ready then so I rolled a pack of cigarets while I waited. When he was done I got in there and made myself ready and then it was time to go.

After my internship I took the bus to the grocery store, then home to start get everything done. A never ending job. Once you are done it's time to start all over again. But now I'm waiting for the laundry to be done so I can hang it and then I'm done for today. I should vaccum but it has to wait until tomorrow. I'm always the most tired on tuesdays for some reason so when the laundry is done I'm gonna curl up on the couch under the blanket for a while.

Later there isn't much to do. The usual with cooking and doing the dishes. Oh how I long for a dishwasher. I'm so tired of doing the dishes. And it doesn't get any better when you are short and has to stand in some weird position, my back doesn't like that. It's worst when I do the dishes after dinner when there are so many thing, after breakfast it's not that much and goes fast. Not to mention how dry my hands are since I suck at using hand lotion.

Misunderstanding

I had totaly misunderstood everything yesterday. It was Girls 04 that went on to the playoffs and Maja played with Girls 05. But the whole team were there to cheer them on, and cheered them on to a silver. Maja called me and told me that Girls 04 had made it to the finals. And as I said, they got a silver. Me, I had sooo much fun doing everything I didn't have time to do this weekend. I'm still behind on laundry so I know what I will do this week.

Maja and J are still sleeping, they get to sleep in on mondays. Some people are lucky. Leo are in the kitchen having breakfast. He has a cough but no fever and is kind of the same so he will go to school. But with a note saying he will nog be in gym class today. He would never make it. So we'll see if they call from school saying he needs to come home but I don't think so. He is not that bad, then he would have gotten to stay home if I thought he couldn't make it.

This afternoon I will be doing laundry as I said and take care of the apartment. Even though I was cleaning until dinner yesterday it's still stuff that needs to be done. So I'll do it while the laundry machine is going. If I'm lucky I'll have time to curl up on the couch for a while, didn't go to sleep until midnight last night. So right now I'm looking forward to coffee at work a bit extra. I will need it today.

When you can't oversleep

Ouch what a start this day got. My alarm didn't sound, the alarm clock was dead, so I woke up when Kalle called and was outside and it was time to go. So up, wake up the munchkins, grab some clothes and a bag of apples. But we made it in time and lucky for the kids Kalle had a lot with him to eat and he shared that with the kids.

The game yesterday went great, the won big time. The game this morning didn't go that good. The whole team was out of focus and as a result the lost big time. Then it was a few hours left until the next game at 12.30 pm so we went home. I have some stuff to do before we leave. Like doing the dishes that I didn't have time to do yesterday. Depending on how the next game goes we will know if they will play another game, if they make it to the playoffs. I'm kind of a terrible mom, and hate this weekend, so I'm almost hoping that they wont make it. And if they do it won't be where they play now, that is close to where we live. If they do we will have to take the bs down town, and I like to avoid that because they aren't that many buses on the weekends.

A nice surprice for the kids yesterday at the opening ceremony was that their grandfather came. I knew that he had been thinking about it, but we didn't decide on anything so I didn't tell the kids. But when we stood and watched the performances I looked around and there he was. But we didn't stay for the whole ceremony, sleep was more importand, and specially for Maja so she would be fit for fight today. So when we came home around 9 pm it was straight to bed for the munchkins. Me and J went to bed to watch Greys Anatomy before we went to sleep, but I was so tired that I ended up falling a sleep on his shoulder at the end of the episode.

Soo tired

Today it was really hard getting up, it took 45 minutes. It was so much more nice to stay in bed with J so I rather did that. But eventually it was time to get up.

Today it's the usual here at home. First my internship, and I would rather be in bed even though I like it there. Then the bus to the internship, get something for dinner and then home and take care of things. If I'm lucky I will have time to curl up on the couch, I'm guessing I will be really tired this afternoon. But I only have myself to blame when we went to bed kind of late.

At first we watched two episodes of Sons of Anarchy, then we talked for a long time and then it was late. So when we went to bed it was after midnight and then the alarm sounded at 6:30 am. No, then you are tired. I can't wait for tonight when it's time to get in to bed.

To start a phone

We went to bed at a reasonable time last night and yet I'm still tired. But at least I'm not seeing double like yesterday when I got up. I guess that's good.

Yesterday I was busy when I got home after the internship. I did two loads of laundry, cleaned, did the dishes and went to the grocery store. But I did get to sleep on the couch, I needed it. I woke up when J sat down beside me. At first I thought I was dreaming but it was him. I wondered why he hadn't called on the door phone but it was open so he had gotten in anyway. 

I'm gonna try to find time to sleep on the couch today as well, I still have laudry to take care of. I was supposed to do four loads yesterday but only did two since I fell a sleep, so the other two are left for today.

But first I need to go down town to drop of some papers. The bus are going straight down there and it takes only a minute to go from the bus to the office. I would like to get my money, I have about 1000 SEK I'm getting back for the buss and medicine. I'm gonna need those money for May when there are lots of birthdays, three if I'm counted right.

Today Kalle will go with Leo to Tuna Park. It keeps popping up on Leos phone that he has to put in his puk-code and that paper he has lost, of course. So Kalle will go with him to the Telenor store and we'll see if they can fix it, they are good at that store.

Sooo tired

I went back to sleep yesterday after I have blogged. I was just gonna lay in bed and watch while J was playing on his xbox and the kids were going outside so Maja could use her inlines with Kalle. I layed in bed and was gonna watch for a moment and went right back to sleep. Then I slept for an hour or so. I guess I needed it.

When I woke up I got ready and then we went to the store. We met Kalle and the munchkins outside so they came with us. Then Kalle came up for a coffee before he went home.

I got everything done yesterday but not the laundry. It had to wait until today insted. I'll do that when I get home from my internship. It's not like it will go away.

J spent the afternoon playing on his xbox with Maja. He was just home to get another hand control for his xbox. While he was away I emptied the balcony and the closet. It was kind of quick, about 10 minutes.

Today I wasn't happy when the alarm sounded, I did not want to get up. Insted I just wanted to curl up against J and go back to sleep. But it was just to get up and look happy. But I'm so tired I can almost not keep my eyes open. But now it's time to get ready.

Friday feeling

I was so tired today as well when the alarm started to sound. So when that happend I stayed in bed for a while. To be in bed next to J is the best that is. Nothing is better than that.

Yesterday I cleaned the bathroom so now there isn't much that needs to be done here. I'm gonna vaccum and scrub the floors. That's it. Then we are ready for saturday and Majas birthdayparty.

But before I can do all of that I have a day at my internship that I need to do. I like it so much there and it feels like I'm in the right place. Sure, not everything is super fun, but when is it ever? But if you look at the big picture it's fun and that is what makes it worth it to get up early every morning.

Morning coffee at the internship

Almost done

Today it was hard getting up, God how I'm longing for the weekend and sleeping in. I just want to sleep!

The meeting with my case worker yesteryday went great. With us was my supervisor for the archive and she was more than happy. She thinks that I'm quick to learn and it's easy for me to understand. I think Lilith was sitting there and looking really happy. Next week the boss are gonna be with us, it will be fun to see what she has to ssay.

When I got home I cleaned the tiles over the stove and then the stove. And then I spilled it again when I was cooking. Just like me. So I had to clean it again.

The rest of the afternoon I spent reading, I didn't sleep on the couch. I got stuck in a biography and was sitting there until it was time to start dinner.

Today it's the bathroom that will be getting my attention. I'm not looking forward to it, lucky for me it's easy to clean. Then I'm pretty much done with everything that I need to get done, only the floors left and I will do them on friday.

Will there even be a new blog?

Oh God how tired I am. We were in bed talking last night, me and J, as we often do. So the time just went flying by before we got to sleep. So I took my sleeping pills late and I can still feel the effect of them. So for the moment everything is a bit fuzzy.

That whole thing with looking for a design didn't go great. I spent hours looking and couldn't find a single one. Not even one to use as a ground to keep building on. And even though I seached for free designs I almost only found ones that costs and that won't happen. I won't pay $50-$70 for a design, that's just how it is. So worst case I will stay here on blogger. But I prefer Wordpress any day of the week. And do my own design is not an option. Sure, I could probably change how wide it is and stuff like that but nothing else. I was so disappointed.

Friday today and the last day at my internship for this week. Sure, I like it there, but it's so nice to have time off. Now I enjoy it more than when I just was home every day doing nothing. I look forward to the weekends in a whole new way.

The only bad thing is that the munchkins are going to their dad for the weekend and then it will be empty, silent and boring at home. But you just have to the the best of if and sleep in and stuff like that.

After my internship I'm going down town. The munchkins needs more socks, as always. I don't understand where theirs are going. Leo refuses to wear socks but at the community youth center he has to. Then I know that there were something else I was gonna buy, but I forgot what it was. We'll see if I can remember it when I get down there.

Then I will take the bus to the grocery store and shop for the weekend. I think I will buy a chicken salad for dinner today. J and I was talking about it last night and I wanted one so bad. Yes, I think I will today.

Munchkin,  you will be missed 

When you aren't sick

The internship yesterday went great. At least until 30 minutes before I was finished for the day when Leo called and didn't feel well and wanted to come home so it was just for me to pack up my stuff. Lucky for me it's not that far away.

When I got home there was a munchkin that wasn't sick, only tired. I explained that tired is not a reason to go home from school because then no one would ever be in school. So he can go back to school today and I can go to my internship.

When I got home yesterday I curled up on the couch trying to rest, I was so tired. But I had to much coffee so I couldn't. So I made som more coffee and sat at the computer insted. That worked too.

After my internship today I'm going down town to drop of some papers. I was suposed to do that yesterday but didn't have time for it before I had to go home. I need to think of something to eat as well so I can take the buss to the grocery store without going home first. But I still have time, doesn't leave until 8.30 am.

But then again we are four people that are getting ready and need to use the bathroom. J will wake up soon and then he's gonna have a shower, I showered last night. Then the munchkins are getting ready and brushing their teeth and then I need to get ready, brush my teeth and put on my make up. So there is a line to the bathroom in the morning.

It's finally time!

The meeting yesterday went well. I was soooo nervous but it went so well that I'm starting today! Finally I have my internship. But what wasn't that fun is that insted of setting my alarm at 7 am I now have to set it at 6.30 am if I'm gonna have time to do everything in the morning. But it's so worth it.

Soon it's time to wake up the munchkins and J. At 7 am. I thought I would blog first. Then it's time to fight about the bathroom. The munchkins are gonna brush their teeth and J is gonna shower and get ready and then it's time for me to get ready. There is gonna be a line to the bathroom.

At 9 am my internship starts and then it ends at lunch. After that I need to go down town to drop of some papers so I get my money. Then I'm going home. I don't have to go to the grocery store today.

I suspect that I'm gonna be dead tired so I think I'll curl up under the blanket on the couch when everything is done at home.  Then I think Kalle is coming over for a coffee and see how everything went today so I'll have to try to not sleep to much on the couch.

I'll end the day with a shower. I have shower at night. Mostly because I'm to lazy to blow dry my hair and I hate going to bed with wet hair. But if I'm gonna have time to shower in the morning I have to get up at 6 am and I'm to lazy for that. So shower at night it is. Then it's time for bed and watch some tv shows with J before it's time to sleep.

All of me

Oh God, I'm tired. The last time we looked it was 2 am and then back up again when the alarm sounded at 7 am. But I stayed in bed for a while.

We was in bed talking for a loooong while, for like three hours. Among other things what we want in life and the relationship and we both want the same thing. We want it to end up with us living together! That's where I see us in a couple of years and obviously him too. It feels nice that he is planning to stay, and are not only in it for the moment.

Today I have a meeting about the internship at 10 am. So I'm gonna be there just before 10 am and meet up with my case worker. And I'm soooo nervous. I've been home for over a year and I can't wait to do something and now it's so close. Of course I'm nervous.

After the meeting it's time to go home and fix stuff here. Then I'm gonna curl up on the couch for a while, there is a risk that I'm gonna fall asleep as well. I'm so tired that everything looks blurred so I think I need it.

Don't wake the lion

Yesteryday was such a good day. I haven't seen a basketball game in a while and what a difference it is now. Good passses, good game and protect the ball under the hoop and a really good defence game. Maja, who has always been good at defence was now even better. You can tell that they got a new coach that takes the whole thing serious. They won both of their games and it was well-earned.

When we got home it was time to start dinner and J went home to get some keys and other stuff and then he came back. When the munchkins went to bed we spent the night in bed watching a few tv shows. Sons of Anarchy and Grimm that we started watching a little while back. Good shows that I can recommend.

Monday today and that means the breakfast group. I remembered that they have changed the day! I still don't like that it's on mondays insted of tuesdays. But this week it's a good thing since I have an important meeting tomorrow and whould have missed the breakfast group. 

It's only me and Leo awake. Both Maja and J starts later today and are still sleeping. But out of habit I knocked on Majas door to see if she was up. But a little demon shouted that she didn't have to get up at 7 am and I backed out of the room.

I'm so tired so I think I will curl up on the couch this afternoon when I'm finished with everything. I can't wait. But first I need to finish the breakfast group where I will drink so much coffee, home and think of something to eat and then go grocery shopping, and then do some stuff around the home. 

Yesterday I finally moved some e-books to my phone so now I'm reading again. I like weird tv shows like Teen Mom so right now I'm reading Maci Bookouts biography. Then I moved some vampire books as well. You can never have to many of those.

Little meddlesome kids

Oh God how tired I was when the alarm sounded. I didn't wanna get up, insted I curled up against J for a few minutes. But that didn't make it any easier to get out of bed, I just wanted to stay there and cuddle for the rest of the morning. But with two munchkins at home I just have to forget that. Time to get up and start the coffee.

When there is no more coffee and I'm finished with the blog it's time for a hot shower, I'm so cold when I'm tired. This day will require a lot of make up, I can guarantee that. Lucky for me that I now have two mascaras, the one that went missing magicaly showed up again last night. Yesterday is also the day the munchkins came home from their dad. But both are saying they didn't take it so there is not much I can do. I can't punish both for what one of them did.

After my shower I need to go down town to drop of some papers so I can get my money and I need to refill my bus pass as well. I'm thinking of having lunch but I'm not sure about it. I will be there a bit to early for lunch I think, and it's so boring to eat alone.

I spent some time yesterday e-mailing back and forth with another company for a collaboration that went well. It's so much fun when things like that works out. But the first company that was so quick to reply and so positive for a collaboration haven't answered my last mail. I hope they will soon because I think it's the most fun of the collaborations I have had.

How to get the perfect night

There is nothing better than to spend the night in bed with J. We watched some tv shows, cuddled and talked. About how we met, how everything became what it is. And lots of laughter, I love how  he makes me laugh.

Less funny is that I only got five hours och sleep this night. We cuddled and talked until 2 am, and then the alarm went of at 7 am again so I'm sooo tired. Both Maja and J is starting late today and are still sleeping so there is only me and Leo awake.

Today I don't know if I'm gonna see my case worker about my internship or not. We are suposed to meet at 10.30 pm but we talked about everything on the phone last friday. I'm hoping we won't see eachother today because then I can go back to bed when Maja has left for school, she starts 8.45 pm. But if we are gonna meet I'm gonna go to the drug store and get peanut oil. I have such dry skin and nothing helps. So I asked my friend Linda and she recommended it and everything is worth trying. I'm also gonna book and appointment to get my nails done, hopefully they have a time on friday at 1 pm. 

Then I have to call about my washer and change it for a smaller one. Yesterday I got an error about that it's not getting enough water. They have put it so close to the wall that the hose is bent where the water comes in. But even tho it's so close to the wall I still can't open it all the way, the toilet is in the way. So I have to change it to a smaller one.

I'm just gonna gather up some courage first, I hate making those kinds of calls. So it's not sure that I'm gonna do that today, it's not an emergency. Kalle fixed the hose so at least I can do the laundry, and be bothered that the door only opens one third of the way.

Let´s hope for some luck

I didn't get much sleep last night either. It was around 3 am when I fell a sleep and then back ut again at 7 am. So when the munchkins went to school I went back under the covers. That was nice.

I'm about to go to the grocery store, just have to think of something to eat. It will only be me and Leo at the dinner table today. Maja has her basketball practice so she will have dinner early. After her practice we are gonna try to get internet to work as it should.

The stuff from my internet provider came yesterday so we are gonna connect them today. I wasn't brave enough to do it on my own because if something went wrong Kalle wasn't here to fix it so it had to wait until today. We are gonna start by testing if my old router works better when we change the old switch. Then we can return the new router and I can use that money on something else. I hope so.

Got a new love

Yesterday I finally got the laundry done. So I guess that the laundry room is like the power to the front door, it doesn't work on weekends. Oh God I'm so tired of this renovation allready.

My new phone arrived yesterday! But we had some problems getting it to work. At first it wouldn't connect to Googles servers so I couldn't download any apps. Then the sim card was to big so Kalle had to go to Tuna Park and the Telenor store so they could cut it to the right size.

My head got so tired with fixing everything, it took an hour or two. Find and download all the apps, remember username and passwords for everything and so on and so on. But I finally got it all done. But I was so tired that we went to bed around 11 pm and I was sleeping before midnight.

Today it's the breakfast group for me. I would rather just get back in to bed and go back to sleep but nope, that ain't gonna happen. After the breakfastgroup I was gonna go home to my aunt and help her with her tablet but I got a sick Maja at home and don't wanna be away more than I have to so we have to do that some other time.

My new love

It's about time

Oh I´m so tired, vi didnt go to sleep before 2 am. And then back up again when the alarm went of at 7 am.

Today I'm finally getting my nails done. De look so ugly! I haven't done them since December 2th so it's really about time. I got a giftcard for christmas from my mother so I called yesterday to make an appointment. And I get to spend some time away from home with all the noice from the renovation.

When it's 4 pm and all the handymen has left for today I'm so gonna curl up on the couch and enjoy the silence. Maybe sleep for an hour before it's time to make dinner.

Tonight it's time for the last episode of Pretty Little Liars and then a movie in bed with J. We always watch movies in bed every night. It's so much nicer than to sit on the couch. And you can cuddle a lot better in bed as well. We are watching the second movie in the Underworld series. We watched the first one last night.