When everything goes wrong.

Today it went a whole lot easier to get up. It can have something to do with us turning the tv off at 10 pm and started getting ready for bed. Then it took some time to get in to bed but that's another thing.

Since Maja went to her dad for a few hours yesterday and Leo was away with Kalle I curled up on the couch for a nap. It was a really crappy day yesterday, everything went wrong. I had such pms that I felt like crying all day, my thumb nail broke (lucky for me I have an appointment friday), I almost forgot my bag with my bus pass and the key to work, I cut myself on a box how ever that happend, I forgot to take my usual shoes to work and took the boots insted. Everything that could go wrong went wrong. The only thing to do then is to take a nap and hope that it's better when I wake up. And it was. Leo came home and has gotten a new phone number at the Telenorstore, since his old card wasn't registered they couldn't se a puk-code so they gave him a new sim-card insted.

Today I have a meeting with my case worker, the boss will be there as well. What ever she will say since she has been on vacation for two weeks. But I'm nervous. What if she isn't happy with me. I hope she is and that I get to stay. I don't think she will say something bad, but of course you worry. It's her opinion that counts the most.

Then when I'm done for the day I'm taking the bus to the grocery store and get something for dinner, don't know what yet. Then home and take care of the home. I need to clean, fix the balcony that I didn't care about yesterday, do laundry that I didn't care about doing yesterday, and just pick up stuff and clean. If I have any time I will read, my books that I was gonna mail the company about finally came so now I have a whole book series to read.

My thumb nail

A thursday that is like a friday

What a day I had yesterday. Everything that could go wrong went wrong. It all started when I overslept, which resulted in not having the time to do everything at home before I left. I also dropped the ashtray so everything fell out in the whole kitchen. It was just for me to take out the vacuum cleaner.

I get to my internshit and is making coffee and when it's ready I spill boiling hot coffee on my foot when I'm changing the filter in the machine. While I'm changing the filter the coffee keeps on poring even though there is no coffee pot there, coffee everywhere. It was just for me to whipe it up.

The meeting with my case worker went well at least. He thinks that we should keep doing 9-12 am for a few months before we start doing 9 am-2 pm. After that it's full time and the goal is of course me getting a job.

Today it was hard getting up. I woke up J and then it was time to get up. I made him coffee while he's in the shower. I have promised him that for days but it haven't been done for different reasons, like that we overslept yesterday and didn't have time for coffee. But now we had the time so it's waiting for him to get out of the shower.

After the internship it's the bus to the grocery store, just need to think of something for dinner. Then home and do some cleaning, I won't have time to fix everything before I leave today. I'm thinking of curling up on the couch as well. I either sleep for an hour or do some reading. Moved a lot of e-books over to the phone and started reading yesterday.


But first of all I need to get through my internship, the last day of the week since it's easter here in Sweden. I mostly looking forward to the coffee. I don't drink any at home before I leave, my stomach doesn't like it. So I always have a cup of coffee when I get there and has made some. Lovely!

It can only get better

Fuck what a crappy day I had yesterday.

It started with the hanger in the hallway falling down. I think we had to much on it. So remove all the winter clothes and then put it back up again.

Down town after the internship to drop of some papper. I was gonna buy a huuuuge coffee mug to have at my internship, they only have small ones. Did I find a big one? Of course not. They always have it at In&Finn but not this time. I finally find a half big, pink mug that I buy. I was also gonna bye socks for Leo only to discover that I left my Mastercard at home in the other jacket.

I get home and is gonna go get the box for the winter clothes from the basement. I always put it so it's easy to get since I take it up twice a year but not we had a moving company first empty the storage and then put everything back. So the box has of course ended up way back against the wall, under a lot of other boxes. It takes me 15 minutes just to get to it.

When I finally get back up to the apartment what do I see? A big coffee mug of course, I already had one and didn't have to buy one. There and then I gave up and curled up on the couch for the rest of the afternoon.

Today will hopefully get better. After my internship I'm taking the bus to the store to buy me a salad. I have been in the mood for a chicken salad so I will have that today. Then home to change the sheets on the bed, it is friday.

Later we are going to a movie. We are gonna see Triple 9 with Norman Reedus from The Walking Dead. It will be nice to get out of the house for a while. The munchkins are going to their dad for the wekend and comes home on monday so we have plenty of time to do stuff.

Now it's time to get ready for the internship. Oh, how I can't wait until I get to sleep in.

Is it ok to have pms?

Yesterday wasn't as boring as Thursday was but I think that is because I talked on the phone non stop haha. So much that when it was 7 pm I only had 20% left on my battery and had to charge it. That never happens! And I didn't have time to transfer some e-books to the phone. I will try again today because I won't have the money to buy an e-book reader any time soon. First I have to save money for a new freezer.

I felt a bit sorry for myself yesterday, I had some really bad pms. No, I know, you are not suposed to write about that I have learned. Everything should be pink, fluffy and happy when you have a blog. But I have bad days, kids that talks back and have bad days sometimes and pms. But I managed to not be a total bitch to J during the evening. I was even so nice that I warned him before he came here. And he still came. That is true love.

Today I'm gonna focus on the home, I didn't yesterday because I was in pain and felt sorry for myself. So I'll do that today insted. I need to go to the grocery store, I need to get dinner for two days. And I'm always having trouble to think about something to eat for one day, now I need to think about something for two days. I don't have time to go to the store tomorrow since we are gone most of the day. We leave early and will be back again just before it's time to start dinner. A long day away.

But first of all I'm gonna finish my coffee, my second one today. Then I need to get ready and make a shopping list. Just my luck that we are all out of everything almost the week before the money comes in. But what to do besides just buy everything we are out of and look happy.

Chaos deluxe

Today I first woke up at 9 am. I got up, had a smoke and went back to bed again. Woke up at 11 am when Js alarm went off. We stayed in bed and cuddled for a while before we got up.

Yesterday Lilith was pissed. J didn't show up until 9.30 pm. Så it was a bit of a tension here. I asked him why he was so late, and he said that before I had said that he could come when ever. I told him that it was when his friend Johan was here and he didn't know when he was going home. Then he said that what ever, we still would have time to do what we should. So I got pissed and got out for a smoke. What we would have time to do was watch a movie and then go to sleep. When I got back in we watch the rest of the movie and didn't say a thing. Then I said that he was stupid and pointed out that we see each other less now when we are together then before and he promised that it wouldn't happen again. So we will see when he gets here today.

Today Kalle is coming over. First he is gonna dye my hair, it's long overdue. Then we need to empty the hallway for the renovation that is starting tomorrow. They are gonna put in a temporary floor so they won't damage the floor that is there. They are renovating the bathroom and the toilet. For five weeks! I'm gonna die. Then we need to empty the bathroom and the toilet so we will keep busy today. J should have helped but he decided to go swiming with a friend. I guess you could do that insted of helping like you said. Kalle is also taking home our cats, they are gonna live with him during the renovation.