Don't wake the lion

Yesteryday was such a good day. I haven't seen a basketball game in a while and what a difference it is now. Good passses, good game and protect the ball under the hoop and a really good defence game. Maja, who has always been good at defence was now even better. You can tell that they got a new coach that takes the whole thing serious. They won both of their games and it was well-earned.

When we got home it was time to start dinner and J went home to get some keys and other stuff and then he came back. When the munchkins went to bed we spent the night in bed watching a few tv shows. Sons of Anarchy and Grimm that we started watching a little while back. Good shows that I can recommend.

Monday today and that means the breakfast group. I remembered that they have changed the day! I still don't like that it's on mondays insted of tuesdays. But this week it's a good thing since I have an important meeting tomorrow and whould have missed the breakfast group. 

It's only me and Leo awake. Both Maja and J starts later today and are still sleeping. But out of habit I knocked on Majas door to see if she was up. But a little demon shouted that she didn't have to get up at 7 am and I backed out of the room.

I'm so tired so I think I will curl up on the couch this afternoon when I'm finished with everything. I can't wait. But first I need to finish the breakfast group where I will drink so much coffee, home and think of something to eat and then go grocery shopping, and then do some stuff around the home. 

Yesterday I finally moved some e-books to my phone so now I'm reading again. I like weird tv shows like Teen Mom so right now I'm reading Maci Bookouts biography. Then I moved some vampire books as well. You can never have to many of those.

Just another manic monday

Did I clean the bathroom yesteryday? Of course not. I ended up in front of the tv in my sweatpants and watched some bad soap operas until J and we curled up under the blanket in bed and watched a movie. 

Today it was a breakfast group, they have changed it to mondays, but I didn't go. I'll go next week insted. I was woken up by my case worker calling telling me that the place that is looking for an intern was positive so he just wanted to check with me if he could book a meeting and I was of course positive to that. 

Today the munchkins are finally coming home! How I have missed them! I didn't throw on the sheets on their beds so I have to do that today insted. I also need a shower and think of what we are gonna eat and then go to the grocery store. But I think I'll do that when they have came home, or there is a risk that I'm at the store when they are coming home and then they have to wait outside.

Me and J lied in bed and talked about some serious stuff and life in general, it's so nice that he actually listens to what I'm saying. Lilith is not used to that. I'm so lucky to have such an amazing boyfriend, I hope he knows how much I love and appreciate him. I'm telling him that as much as I can.

Some bad news

Oh god  how good I was yesterday that got all the calls done. So now the washer is balanced. Then I texted my case worker if she could call me but someone else did because she is on sick leave until April. It whould have been good to get some info about that. But I toltd the man who called that I needed another tag for the front door and a smaller washer so we'll see if that happens.

At the breakfast group we got some bad news; it's moving to mondays. That means that even the weekends that the kids are with their dad I have to get up semi early on mondays if I'm gonna make it to the breakfast group. We have got a new instructor because one of our old ones quit and she can only make it on mondays. Bleh!

Now it´s full speed going on here at home when the kids are getting ready for school. After they have left I'm gonna go back to bed and to J and sleep for another hour. J is home because he has a headache and stomachache but are going to school tomorrow.

Later this afternoon I'm going to do laundry now that the washer is balanced, I'm out of socks. Then I need to think of something to eat and go to the store. Oh God how I hate to think of something to eat every day. But if I can't think of food for one day how am I gonna do a meal plan for the whole week? No, that's imposible so I'll keep coming up meals day by day.

Best night ever

The meeting yesterday went great. He had some ideas of places to call so he was gonna start today. So now we are hoping that somethings happening soon. 

When I left I got a text from J asking how it went, and then he said he had something to tell me but it had to wait until he came here. What the fuck could that be? When he came here he gave me a big hug and wishpered in my ear "I love you". Can you imagine how long I have waited to hear that? He made me the happiest ever!

Today I managed to miss the alarm. I woke up at 7.50 in panic. Lucky for me I have big kids that still does what they are gonna do so they were ready for school. Now it's only me that is stressed because I need to take a shower before the breakfast group today.

Later today I need to think of something to eat and then go to the grocery store. I need to call about the washer not being balanced so that everything that stands on it falls down when I do the laundry plus that it hits the sink and I don't want it to break.

Hopefully some renovation

I was so confused when my alarm went off and I couldn't stop it. But it wasn't my alarm, it was Js. But shortly after that my alarm went off and it was time to get up. 

I would rather go back in to bed when the munchkins have left for school but it tuesday and that means the breakfast group. I hope I get to stay a bit longer than the last time. But I have to leave a bit early because I have some paper to drop of and then I need to go to the store and get some cigarets. But God, the coffee will taste good.

After the breakfast group it's time to get home to get things done here. If I haven't already done it. Sometimes I have time to fix it all before I leave for the breakfast group, I have about an hour after the munchkins have left for school before I need to leave. 

This afternoon will be nice and quiet, I hope. I might have the home to take care of, or maybe I have already done it. 

Maja had her picture taken at the basketball practice last night. Great pictures but wow, they were expensive. Over 600 SEK for a package. So I guess I'll just order 2 pictures. One for me and one for Kalle. He wanted one too. I was thinking about ordering them this afternoon.

There isn't much happening with the renovation. Well, I can here them outside the apartment but here it's not happening that much. I hope the put in the porcelain today when I'm at the breakfast group. I'm longing for a toilet so I don't have to go out every time.

The coffee will taste great today

Sick house

The meeting yesterday went great, I got two more years. Min case worker had some places he was gonna call this week so now we are hoping for the best. The whole thing took no more than five minutes, then I went to the grocery store and then home and down under the covers. But couldn't fall a sleep so I gave up and got up again.

Last night me and J emptied the kitchen cabinet. They are gonna put in new electricity so the cabinet had to be emptied so that they can reach everything. But only one of the cabinets strangely enough even though the electricity goes through both cabinets. Oh well, that is their problem. I won´t even be home.

It´s Tuesday and that means the breakfast group. But I'm getting down there early because I need to go to the drugstore. This is the last day that I can get my meds for free so I need to get as much as I can so that I have what I need for a while.

After the breakfast group it's back home to drop everything off and then go to the store. That means I need to think of something to eat. I´m so sick of it.

J is still sleeping. He wasn't feeling that good last night so I'll take it that he is to sick to go to school today. I'm gonna let him sleep. If he is gonna stay home I can take the bus pass when I´m going down town to the drug store and the breakfast group. I hope I get the time to fill out my papers that I need to drop of so I get my money this month as well.

I think I´ll wear this one today

A day full of adventures

The adventures with the router continues. The one I bought worked great at Kalles, so he brought it back here again after I changed some settings on the phone. But no, that didn't work. Damn! But we thought of some things we are gonna try on thursdag. First my switch from my internet provider is soooo old, since 2008, so Kalle called BBB and they would send a new one. Then we will try to split it all (don´t even know what that is, ask Kalle) with another swith between the one from BBB and my router. That is how Kalle has it at home so we hope that it will give some result. If we are really lucky it's the switch that drags down the speed all along and not my old router. Then I can use my old one and return the new one and save the money for a new dishwasher. Well, if it doesn't work I still need to return the old one since it's not working here.

The bad luck continues at home as well. Leo was gonna go to the toilet before bed. Usually I'm not all that happy about him going alone with my keyes but he has done a great job so far so I let him go. Then it's Majas turn and she can't find the keyes. Of course Leo has forgotten them at the toilet. So I take the spare keyes and we went outside. Lucky for all of us my keyes where on the basin where he put them. I put them in my pocket and we went hoem again.

When we get close to the house I´m gonna take out the keyes from my pocket and one of the spare keyes falls to the ground. It has been snoving all night... Sent the kids home, cursed a lot and started looking. In deep snow. When I'm about to give up and just have to pay the 1200 SEK that a key costs I finally find it.

Tuesday today and Lilith has the breakfast group. I just wanna go back to bed. I'm so tired. We watched Paranormal Activity last night and I was scared to death. As always with those movies. So I'm so tired today, it takes a lot of energy to be that scared. But no, no sleep for me. The breakfast group it is. I´m gonna leave early so I have time to go to the drugstore before the breakfast group.

After that it´s time to go back home, drop of my bag and go to the grocery store. I need to think of something to eat as well. God, how I hate everything that has to do with food. Then home and take care of the apartment if I don't have time to do that before I go. If I´m lucky I have time left for a nap on the couch as well.

Got a new love

Yesterday I finally got the laundry done. So I guess that the laundry room is like the power to the front door, it doesn't work on weekends. Oh God I'm so tired of this renovation allready.

My new phone arrived yesterday! But we had some problems getting it to work. At first it wouldn't connect to Googles servers so I couldn't download any apps. Then the sim card was to big so Kalle had to go to Tuna Park and the Telenor store so they could cut it to the right size.

My head got so tired with fixing everything, it took an hour or two. Find and download all the apps, remember username and passwords for everything and so on and so on. But I finally got it all done. But I was so tired that we went to bed around 11 pm and I was sleeping before midnight.

Today it's the breakfast group for me. I would rather just get back in to bed and go back to sleep but nope, that ain't gonna happen. After the breakfastgroup I was gonna go home to my aunt and help her with her tablet but I got a sick Maja at home and don't wanna be away more than I have to so we have to do that some other time.

My new love

The second time this year

Oh how I hate my alarm! I had expected to wake up because the handymen came at 7 am but no. They still haven´t come. But I can here them in the house so they might show up soon.

Tuesday is the breakfastgroup. The second one this year, it started last week. I had planed to go make an appointment to get my nails done too, but we´ll see. I might just call there and make an appointment. I hope they have a spot open for tomorrow before lunch so I can get away from all the noise at home.

After the breakfastgroup it´s time to get home to think of something to eat for dinner and then go to the grocery store. Then home and get things done if I haven't had the time to do it before the breakfastgroup.

Back

Good morning! I'm back! I have had writers block for ever so we'll see how this goes lol.

Tuesday and it's the breakfast group at 10 am. Before that I need to have a shower and shave my legs. J is coming over tomorrow and is sleeping here.

Yes we are still dating, or what we are doing. Not sure lol. It has been three months now. He was here spending the night every night for a month. That was really nice. This week he will be here wednesday, friday and saturday. I miss him like fuck when he isn't here so I don't mind it becoming wednesday verry fast.

A little update

Here I am. It hasn't happend a lot since I last wrote.

Saturday we went to my mom to celebrate her boyfriend turning 60. It was verry nice with happe people and great food.

Yesterday I went to the breakfast group that has started again after the summer break. It's in a new place and I got lost a couple of times before I could find the right place.

Today I'm gonna take a nap on the couch. Me and  J has fallen a sleep so late this whole week. Around 2 am. Then back up again at 6.30 am. That's not enough sleep for me.

Yes, J is still sleeping here. He has been sleeping here for a week now and it's nice with some company. I feel so good with him.

Good girl

I overslept. I thought I woke up at 7 am but I woke up at 8 am. Good girl.

Yesterday I finally got a letter! He got moved so that's why I got my letters back. But now I have the right adress. I was so happy to finally hear from him.

I went and got a appointment for my next tattoo yesterday. July 1! I can't wait! And of course it's from a song by Linkin Park. What else?

Today it's the breakfast group. After that I'm getting my nails done. And then I need to buy Leo some new hoodies. I hope I get home before he does.

Like any other tuesday

I have slept like crap. Woke up 4 times during the night so I was a zombie when the alarm went off.

Tuesday and it's the breakfast group, I'll think I'll walk there even tho it's the most boring road ever. And after that I'm shopping for birthday presents for Leo, his birthday is on friday. Then the bus to the grocery store to get something for dinner. Don't know what yet.

But before all that I need to send the kids to school, have a shower and get ready.

The pain!

Yesterday was a painful day. I got an UTI that hurts like hell. I get them from time to time. So I spent my whole day drinking lots of water and waiting for it to be today so I could call the doctor. But all that water must have helped because I feel a lot better today. So no doctor for me.

Insted I'm going to the breakfast group, it's tuesday. I think I'll walk there since I don't have time for a powerwalk, I need to shower as well before I leave. When we are done I'm going to the store to get some groceries for dinner. We are having taco gratin.

Can't wait for summer

Back to everyday life

I took a break over the easter. But now the easter is over and it's back to everyday life again.

Tuesday today and that means the breakfast group for me. But before that I need a shower, I will have one as soon as the kids go to school. I think I'll walk there when it's time, it's only 3 km.

After the breakfast group it's time to go to the store to get dinner. Don't know what we will have yet, as always. I suck at food and dinner.

About that letter

Nope I didn't get a letter yesterday. Damn. Maybe he, for some reason, stopped writing? I'm starting to think so.

Breakfast group today and I don't feel like it one bit. But since I have to go to this thing before the breakfast group I might as well go there too.

After that it's time for grocery shopping as usual, we are having pasta I think. Then it's back home to do nothing while I'm waiting for the kids to get home. Maybe we'll play a game when they get home. While I'm waiting I think I'm gonna play some WoW.

On the bus

Getting worried

Nope, no letter and Lilith is worried. Haven't heard from him in 7 weeks now and that's not how it usually is. So now it's a long wait until next monday. Don't think I will get a letter then.

I have the breakfast group today. I'm gonna walk there, it takes about 40 minutes. So when I'm done here I'm off. I have already showered and put on make up so I'm ready to go. The only thing left is to think of something for dinner so I know what I need to buy.

This afternoon I will try to get the kids to play some board games. Unless they wanna go outside and play, the weather is great. I didn't clean the balcony yesterday, I was to busy cleaning the toilet after Leo being sick. Maybe I'll do it tomorrow.

The best surprise

I got the best surprise ever last night; I came over! He drove all the way here after working late, until 8 pm. Lilith is a happy girl. But not that nice to have to get up at 5 am so he would get to work on time.

Today it's the breakfast group, but I'm so tired. But I have to go, because I missed the last two times. So I have to go. I would rather sleep. I guess I get to rest when I'm dead. After that I'm going back to the place that did my nails. One of them look like crap.

Still kind of happy

I cancelled the meating with Leos teacher, since Maja had been sick and I didn't know if it was the stomach flu or not. So better to be on the safe side. But she hasn't thrown up anymore. Strange. But she do have a cold insted.

I had to work late so he came over late, but it didn't matter. At least he came. And that's all that matters. The kids were sleeping when he came so they missed him since he left at 5 am for work. And as usual I was up at that time. This is starting to annoy me! Didn't like him leaving either but he has a long drive to work from here.

Tuesday today and that means the breakfast group for me. I so don't feel like going but I need to go to the pharmacy anyway. Took my last sleeping pill last night so I still have to go down town. And since I'm up I might as well go.

After that it's time for the usual, to get something for dinner. Oh how I suck at this. At one point in my life I was great at it, believe it or not. I loved to cook and could spend hours planning meals.

Making Danish panncakes for dinner

Give me something to do

No matter how much, or how little, I sleep I'm always tired. Always. It's annoying. So today I'm tired as usual.

I have the breakfast group today. In 1½ hour and I'm still in my pyjamas with my coffee. I might have to take the bus for once. I usually walk but don't know if I will have the time to do that. With all that snow it will take about 40 minutes.

When I'm done with the breakfast group I will have time for some grocery shopping before I have a meating with Majas teacher. Nothing big, just a check up about what we think and feel about school. Next week it's Leos turn.

My case worker responded to my text yesterday. She will have some news for me this week, and after that we'll see what happens. I just want something to do and not just stay home. My kids are to big for that, they don't need me home all day. So I hope I get something to do soon before I go crazy.