Splinter in my soul

It sucks a little to have to get up at 6.30 when the kids aren't home. But when it's time for the internship it is. I have to think that I'm getting paid to go there, even if it's not a lot of money it's still money.

I suspect that K have been whispering in the kids ears again because an upset Leo called yesterday and wanted to stay for a few more day. I told him like it is, that he can't. I think that it's something that I and K should of have talked about because I know that he knows that Leo called me. Then he should have told Leo that it is something for me and K to discuss.

I would love it if me and K could communicate so good that the kids could be there every other week, but like it is now it's not gonna happen. How are we gonna talk about school trips, visits to the dentist and everything else when he doesn't call me and doesn't answer when I call? You just can't. And that is why I in court asked about help when we had the custody battle. And we still haven't gone on any meetings to learn how to communicate, three years later. That alone shows why every other week doesn't work when there is zero communication. I expect K to call me and talk, but no. As I said, zero communication. I honestly don't know what to do. I want to listen to what the kids want, but in this situation it doesn't work. But still, they are so big now that they should have some say in everything. This situation is not funny.

I was a bit upset after that call and it didn't get any better when Maja texted me about the same thing. She, who just recently started going to her dad on every other weekend texted and wanted to stay longer, and are using the same phrases as K does. No, then I think someone has been whispering in her ear. And that made me even more upset. So I texted J and asked him to come over, it was a few hours left before he would come and I didn't want to be alone. He answered that he would come over right away, and he did.

He is a big support in all of this. He listens, comes with advise and supports me. Lets me curl up in his arms and cover me in kisses and hugs me. What else could I ask for? I´m so lucky for having him.

I'm gonna wake him up at 8 am but before that I have stuff to do. I need to get ready and put on my make up, and call about my pipes in the bathroom. There is a leakage just under the roof. I don't think that they have tightend the pipes hard enough when they put them in. If I'm lucky I have time to do stuff around the apartment before it's time to leave. I need to think of something to eat so I can just take the bus to the grocery store when I'm done for the day at my internship. I was gonna go to the pharmacy as well when I'm there, I need to get more of my sleeping pills. I took the last ones last night when we went to bed.

At the internship

When the school calls

I didn't get to spend much time at the breakfast group yesterday. I had just poured myself some coffee when the school called. Leo had a headache and wanted to come home so i threw away the coffee and headed for the bus. Lucky for me, and Leo, J was also home sick so Leo could come home and wait for me insted of waiting at school. Then Leo spent most day under the covers on the chouch, freezing. At least I got to get to the drug store before the breakfast group to get all the meds I'm gonna need for a while.

Now they are putting up a new fan in the kitchen and they are making a lot of noice. Yesterday they put up the tile in the bathroom and the toilet so now that´s done. The only thing left is to put in the bathtub and all that stuff so it seems that they are on time. We are on week four out of five and it has gone a lot better than I thought. Soon it´s over! I just hope that J doesn´t wake up from all that noice. He is home sick today as well. 

When Maja has left for school I think I will get back in bed for a while. We went to bed kind of early last night, for being us. A bit before midnight. J is still sick so he didn't mind. And Lilith is like an old lady who loves getting to sleep early. But I´m also a night person who loves staying up late.

Sick house

The meeting yesterday went great, I got two more years. Min case worker had some places he was gonna call this week so now we are hoping for the best. The whole thing took no more than five minutes, then I went to the grocery store and then home and down under the covers. But couldn't fall a sleep so I gave up and got up again.

Last night me and J emptied the kitchen cabinet. They are gonna put in new electricity so the cabinet had to be emptied so that they can reach everything. But only one of the cabinets strangely enough even though the electricity goes through both cabinets. Oh well, that is their problem. I won´t even be home.

It´s Tuesday and that means the breakfast group. But I'm getting down there early because I need to go to the drugstore. This is the last day that I can get my meds for free so I need to get as much as I can so that I have what I need for a while.

After the breakfast group it's back home to drop everything off and then go to the store. That means I need to think of something to eat. I´m so sick of it.

J is still sleeping. He wasn't feeling that good last night so I'll take it that he is to sick to go to school today. I'm gonna let him sleep. If he is gonna stay home I can take the bus pass when I´m going down town to the drug store and the breakfast group. I hope I get the time to fill out my papers that I need to drop of so I get my money this month as well.

I think I´ll wear this one today

Not a fun friday

On my way to the pharmacy yesterday I talked to my friend Sara on the phone and just like that I was on my way home to her for a coffee after I picked up my meds. We don't see each other that much so it was nice and we had a great time.

On the bus on my way to the store after my little brother called and asked if I wanted to have a coffee, he was outside my house. I told him to meet me at the store. Did some shopping for dinner and then we went home to me, had some coffee and a few laughs.

Today won't be as fun. I'm gonna clean the kids rooms. I haven't been able to to that for a while since it has been toys, stuff and clothes all over the floors. But I started the day great with a message from I when I woke up then we texted until he started work.

When Maja comes home from school we are gonna go grocery shopping for the weekend. She wanted tacos for dinner so I guess that's what we are having. And maybe a Ben & Jerry for me.

That time of the week

Something is seriously wrong. When the alarm went of at 6 am I didn't snooze. Got up and made coffee. Not like me at all. I always snooze at least two times.

I have a doctors appointment today. We are gonna go over my meds and see how they are working. We do that every three months. Just to see that everything is ok and continues to be.

Thursday also means Mob Wives! I can't wait for tonight when the kids are in bed and it's time to watch it. It's the best time of the day. And the best day of the week.

Some girl time

Great, Lilith messed up last night. I have big problems when it comes to sleep, so I get medication for that. One works really fast and I get tired right away and the other one takes about an hour or so. Right now I'm on the ones that works really fast, I alternate. So when it was time for bed last night I went out to the kitchen to get my meds, and there aren't any left. I have forgot to get new ones. So what did I have left? The ones that takes for ever to work so I didn't sleep before midnight. Guess who was pretty tired this morning?

But the munchkins made me coffee this morning and woke me up right before my alarm went off. How sweet of them. It tasted like crap haha, but it's the thought that counts. They always do sweet stuff like that.

I'm gonna have a great day today. Me and my cousin are gonna go and get our nails done. Some girl time! Even though we talk everyday we haven't seen each other for weeks. And I really need to get my nails done, they look terrible.

And tonight it's Mob Wives night! Woho! Lilith loves thursdays! It's the best day of the week, even better than the weekend. Yes, I'm addicted to that show and don't know what I'll do when it's over.

Bye bye christmas nails