Misunderstanding

I had totaly misunderstood everything yesterday. It was Girls 04 that went on to the playoffs and Maja played with Girls 05. But the whole team were there to cheer them on, and cheered them on to a silver. Maja called me and told me that Girls 04 had made it to the finals. And as I said, they got a silver. Me, I had sooo much fun doing everything I didn't have time to do this weekend. I'm still behind on laundry so I know what I will do this week.

Maja and J are still sleeping, they get to sleep in on mondays. Some people are lucky. Leo are in the kitchen having breakfast. He has a cough but no fever and is kind of the same so he will go to school. But with a note saying he will nog be in gym class today. He would never make it. So we'll see if they call from school saying he needs to come home but I don't think so. He is not that bad, then he would have gotten to stay home if I thought he couldn't make it.

This afternoon I will be doing laundry as I said and take care of the apartment. Even though I was cleaning until dinner yesterday it's still stuff that needs to be done. So I'll do it while the laundry machine is going. If I'm lucky I'll have time to curl up on the couch for a while, didn't go to sleep until midnight last night. So right now I'm looking forward to coffee at work a bit extra. I will need it today.

Sunday cuddle

Nope, I did not sit down with a book yesterday. Insted I did something much better, I curled up with J in bed while he was playing with his xbox he has taken here. It was nicer to be in his arms than on the couch with a book. And I didn't do everything at home either, I still got the dishes left for today.

When he was done playing his xbox he went to the grocery store and then it was back in bed to watch two episodes of Sons of Anarchy. We ended the evening with a remake of the movie Evil Dead. Lilith was soooo scared, I scare so easy haha. I can strongly recomend it if you like horror movies!

I'm sitting here waiting for it to be 8 am, because then Leo would come and get his clothes for gym class, he forgot them on friday when he was packing to go to his dad. So he called yesterday to see if I was gonna be home. My love, it was so great to hear his voice. I miss them so much when they are with their dad.

But today is monday, and they are coming home! It's the best feeling in the world, nothing can beat it. To finally see their faces again and curl up on the couch and listen to their voices.

Finally monday

God, how nice we had it yesterday. I didn't pay attention at all to my phone, the comuter and so on and we spent the day in bed cuddling and watching tv shows. It showed on my phone battery when we finally went to sleep, it was almost full. J was just home for a short while to get what he needed for school today and then he came back. During that I had some dinner and then it was back to bed.

Unfortunately there were a big discussion when we were gonna sleep. It didn´t have to be a big deal but as usual J exploded and then it was a big deal. And I can't take it any more, that you can't talk about something without him getting all pissed of and then it's an argument. You should be able to talk to eachother about things that botter you. But it all worked out, we never go to sleep mad, but it's stressfull that it has to come to that every thime.

Monday and it's back to the internship after a long, great weekend. But what it's great is that the kids are coming home! What can be wrong with it being monday then? So after the internetship I need to put on some fresh sheets in their beds. I went grocery shopping on friday so I don't have to do that.

Then I'm thinking of cleaning the kitchen cabinets doors this afternoon. I have been slacking with the home since the internship started so now I feel that I need to get going. I just hope I feel the same this afternoon.

Scared to death and sick

God how scared I was last night, Roxy scared me so bad. She is sleeping on the couch as always when she all of a sudden wakes up, start to run around like crazy and there is drool coming out of her mouth. It looks like somthing hanging out of her mouth, which I later see is just drool. But not then. So I think that she has swallowed something that has gotten stuck in her throath. I try to catch her but she runs in to their play tunnel and hide. There is no way I can get to her in there.

So I sit on the couch and wait, and after a while she comes out. She is chewing and licking her lips and I'm convinced that she has swallowed something. Finally I get a hold of her, take her in my arms and try to open her mouth but of course I cant. But when I let her go she throws up all over the couch, twice. But there was only food, nothing else she could have swallowed.

A little while after that I go out for a smoke and J is standing in the kitchen and when I look inside I see Roxy walking towards the food. I ask J and she is eating. She just eats and eats, she eats all of the food I just poured up. After that she has been just like she always is. She comes to cuddle and is her normal self, and she hasn't thrown up again.

Today we are going on a little adventure, we are going to Slagstaglass with Kalle and the munchkins and have ice cream. The munchkins doesn't know where we are going so they have asked a thousand questions where we are going. That is something you have to do in this town, go to Slagstaglass and have one of their ice creams that are the best in town. I don't eat ice cream if it's not Ben & Jerry, the only one I like, so I'll just tag along and watch. And paid for the kids haha. We were going to go and see my cousin who lives there but she isn't home today. Bummer.

Besides that I will just do the most urgent things at home and nothing else. I started to feel a little poor yesterday and when the day was over I was coughing, every joint hurt and I was freezing so bad. It took a while to be able to sleep. 

When I woke up today J asked me how I was feeling and I felt pretty good. Until I got out of bed and started to move. The first thing was that I started to cough again, then freez so bad and every joint hurts. I need to buy something for the fever so I'll make it through my internship this week. I have never ever called in sick for work or an internship ever and I'm not gonna start now.

The cat who scares the life out of you

Splinter in my soul

It sucks a little to have to get up at 6.30 when the kids aren't home. But when it's time for the internship it is. I have to think that I'm getting paid to go there, even if it's not a lot of money it's still money.

I suspect that K have been whispering in the kids ears again because an upset Leo called yesterday and wanted to stay for a few more day. I told him like it is, that he can't. I think that it's something that I and K should of have talked about because I know that he knows that Leo called me. Then he should have told Leo that it is something for me and K to discuss.

I would love it if me and K could communicate so good that the kids could be there every other week, but like it is now it's not gonna happen. How are we gonna talk about school trips, visits to the dentist and everything else when he doesn't call me and doesn't answer when I call? You just can't. And that is why I in court asked about help when we had the custody battle. And we still haven't gone on any meetings to learn how to communicate, three years later. That alone shows why every other week doesn't work when there is zero communication. I expect K to call me and talk, but no. As I said, zero communication. I honestly don't know what to do. I want to listen to what the kids want, but in this situation it doesn't work. But still, they are so big now that they should have some say in everything. This situation is not funny.

I was a bit upset after that call and it didn't get any better when Maja texted me about the same thing. She, who just recently started going to her dad on every other weekend texted and wanted to stay longer, and are using the same phrases as K does. No, then I think someone has been whispering in her ear. And that made me even more upset. So I texted J and asked him to come over, it was a few hours left before he would come and I didn't want to be alone. He answered that he would come over right away, and he did.

He is a big support in all of this. He listens, comes with advise and supports me. Lets me curl up in his arms and cover me in kisses and hugs me. What else could I ask for? I´m so lucky for having him.

I'm gonna wake him up at 8 am but before that I have stuff to do. I need to get ready and put on my make up, and call about my pipes in the bathroom. There is a leakage just under the roof. I don't think that they have tightend the pipes hard enough when they put them in. If I'm lucky I have time to do stuff around the apartment before it's time to leave. I need to think of something to eat so I can just take the bus to the grocery store when I'm done for the day at my internship. I was gonna go to the pharmacy as well when I'm there, I need to get more of my sleeping pills. I took the last ones last night when we went to bed.

At the internship

Don't wake the lion

Yesteryday was such a good day. I haven't seen a basketball game in a while and what a difference it is now. Good passses, good game and protect the ball under the hoop and a really good defence game. Maja, who has always been good at defence was now even better. You can tell that they got a new coach that takes the whole thing serious. They won both of their games and it was well-earned.

When we got home it was time to start dinner and J went home to get some keys and other stuff and then he came back. When the munchkins went to bed we spent the night in bed watching a few tv shows. Sons of Anarchy and Grimm that we started watching a little while back. Good shows that I can recommend.

Monday today and that means the breakfast group. I remembered that they have changed the day! I still don't like that it's on mondays insted of tuesdays. But this week it's a good thing since I have an important meeting tomorrow and whould have missed the breakfast group. 

It's only me and Leo awake. Both Maja and J starts later today and are still sleeping. But out of habit I knocked on Majas door to see if she was up. But a little demon shouted that she didn't have to get up at 7 am and I backed out of the room.

I'm so tired so I think I will curl up on the couch this afternoon when I'm finished with everything. I can't wait. But first I need to finish the breakfast group where I will drink so much coffee, home and think of something to eat and then go grocery shopping, and then do some stuff around the home. 

Yesterday I finally moved some e-books to my phone so now I'm reading again. I like weird tv shows like Teen Mom so right now I'm reading Maci Bookouts biography. Then I moved some vampire books as well. You can never have to many of those.

Just another manic monday

Did I clean the bathroom yesteryday? Of course not. I ended up in front of the tv in my sweatpants and watched some bad soap operas until J and we curled up under the blanket in bed and watched a movie. 

Today it was a breakfast group, they have changed it to mondays, but I didn't go. I'll go next week insted. I was woken up by my case worker calling telling me that the place that is looking for an intern was positive so he just wanted to check with me if he could book a meeting and I was of course positive to that. 

Today the munchkins are finally coming home! How I have missed them! I didn't throw on the sheets on their beds so I have to do that today insted. I also need a shower and think of what we are gonna eat and then go to the grocery store. But I think I'll do that when they have came home, or there is a risk that I'm at the store when they are coming home and then they have to wait outside.

Me and J lied in bed and talked about some serious stuff and life in general, it's so nice that he actually listens to what I'm saying. Lilith is not used to that. I'm so lucky to have such an amazing boyfriend, I hope he knows how much I love and appreciate him. I'm telling him that as much as I can.

How to get the perfect night

There is nothing better than to spend the night in bed with J. We watched some tv shows, cuddled and talked. About how we met, how everything became what it is. And lots of laughter, I love how  he makes me laugh.

Less funny is that I only got five hours och sleep this night. We cuddled and talked until 2 am, and then the alarm went of at 7 am again so I'm sooo tired. Both Maja and J is starting late today and are still sleeping so there is only me and Leo awake.

Today I don't know if I'm gonna see my case worker about my internship or not. We are suposed to meet at 10.30 pm but we talked about everything on the phone last friday. I'm hoping we won't see eachother today because then I can go back to bed when Maja has left for school, she starts 8.45 pm. But if we are gonna meet I'm gonna go to the drug store and get peanut oil. I have such dry skin and nothing helps. So I asked my friend Linda and she recommended it and everything is worth trying. I'm also gonna book and appointment to get my nails done, hopefully they have a time on friday at 1 pm. 

Then I have to call about my washer and change it for a smaller one. Yesterday I got an error about that it's not getting enough water. They have put it so close to the wall that the hose is bent where the water comes in. But even tho it's so close to the wall I still can't open it all the way, the toilet is in the way. So I have to change it to a smaller one.

I'm just gonna gather up some courage first, I hate making those kinds of calls. So it's not sure that I'm gonna do that today, it's not an emergency. Kalle fixed the hose so at least I can do the laundry, and be bothered that the door only opens one third of the way.

Only a few things left

The bath tub and the washing machine is in place. Now the handyman just needs to plug it in and then I can use it. But I still need to go to the laundry room today. I have no sheets left and need them for the kids beds later today. They are coming home after a weekend with their dad.

Besides that it will be a slow day. I need to do some grocery shopping and do the dishes. I got new silverware this saturday so I need to wash them. Yes, I am one of those that washes everything new I get for the kitchen, you never know how many hands that have been there.

I think I will spend a good amount of time on the couch with my feet up as well. But days like that kan be nice, or so they say. I become bored and try to think of little projects to do. I guess I can fix things in the bathroom and unpack everything there and fix the new littler box for tomorrow. If everything is ok then the cats are coming home. 

Hopefully the last week,and some argument

How we spent Valentines day yesterday J and I? With an argument, not that much fun. But we worked it out finally and he got the teddy bear I got for him. He was super happy, for that little thing. But I forgot to get Valentines day cookies for the munchkins but they seems to have forgotten about it too because they didn´t say anything. And believe me, if there is cookies involved they say something.

Since it got so late yesterday I think I'm going back to bed when the munchkins have left for school. But they will take a while because Maja doesn't start until later so she is sleeping in. J starts later as well so he is also still sleeping. It´s just me and Leo awake.

Now it´s the last week of the renovation, I hope. They are gonna come with all the interior this week and then they are suposed to be finished. I really hope they will be because I´m getting sick and tired to go out to the barrack everytime I have to use the bathroom or take a shower.

No Valentines cookies

Time for a meeting

We had a really good time with my dad yesterday. It was me, the rest of his kids, my little sisters mom, my big sisters three kids plus her sons girlfriend. We had cake and spent some time together. Then my little brother was nice enough to drive me home when he was going to work.

When I got home I had some dinner, picked up the dirty laundry and made the bed. Then I lied down on the bed and watched some tv shows. I saw one episode of Criminal minds before I fell a sleep. And woke up when J rang the doorbell. Then we spent the rest of the night watching tv shows in bed.

Today I have a meeting. My internship period is only for one year at a time and then it's time to renew it. And now it's time. To think that I have gone a whole year and waited without something has happend. But now I hope things will change. I'm gonna be there at 11 am so I should have time to do what I need to do at home before that.

At 2 pm it's time for the laundry. Oh God how I miss my washing machine. But there is only two weeks left of this renovation then it's finally done and I can enjoy my bathroom with a shower and a washing machine again. 

Now we have it really warm at home. So warm that last night when we watched some tv shows I was in my pyjamas shorts and a t-shirt. How lovely! We had 77 degrees farenheit. Much better than 62 degrees farenheit and you have to have two layers of clothes on and a thermo blanket.

I miss doing the laundry at home

New phone and a sick Maja

I didn't get any laundry done yesterday. Even though the power was on neither the washer or he dryer worked. I think it's because of the renovation, because the power to the front door doesn't work on weekends either. So I'm gonna try again today 2-6 pm.

My new phone has arrived! So Kalle is coming by with it later. We had to order it in his name because I only had cash and couldn't pay it with my credit card so he was nice enough to do that. So after work he will get it and come here with it. Up until then my job is to empty this phone. It's mostly pictures. Some pictures are gonna go on the computer and some on the new phone. All my print screens are going in to my new phone.

I got a sick Maja home this morning, no school for her. She has just been on the couch all day and is to tired to do anything. She is so pale but with red cheeks. No basketball practice for her today. She complains of a sore throat and a head ache and is coughing like crazy.

Now it's happening

So now the weekend is over and the alarm goes of at 7 am again. Bleh!

Today the renovation in the bathroom and the toilet. Five weeks we have to look forward to. They have already been here and looked and soon they will come to put in the temporary floor in the hallway.

Usually I get back in bed after the munchkins and J has left but that's not happening today. It's gonna be a lot of noice when they tear down the bathroom so I don't know what I´m gonna do. Besides going to the yard next to mine to have a shower. Yes, it's over there they have put up showers and bathrooms. Eventually they will put up showers and bathrooms on our yard too.

Yesterday Kalle was here and helped me with the hallway. Omg, we worked really hard. After I was so tired that I could have gone to bed when the munchkins did. But me and J got in bed at a reasonable time for once. Kalle also took the cats with him so now it feels so empty at  home.

A little break

Oups, I took a little break over the weekend because J has been here pretty much the whole time but a few hours in the middle of the day.

On saturday we went to celebrate my mom who is having her birthday today. Happy birthday mom! It's always nice to go out on the country where she lives. And I got to see Maja who spent the weekend there. Rasmus was there too, so great to see him.

Today J are coming over. It will be the fourth day in a row that he is here. He is coming around 8 pm tonight. It's the first time that he comes over while the kids are still up. But he gets along with them just fine. Especially with Leo.

But before that I have some stuff I need to get done. Like having a shower and go to the store. And come up with something for dinner. The never ending story. 

When you go to sleep insted

I first woke up at 6 am but managed to get back to sleep thank God.

I didn't do laundry yesterday. Or I did, but I fell a sleep on the couch insted and woke up when it was time to cook dinner so I have to wash it again today. After the shower.

Tonight J is coming over to watch a movie. We will watch Scream. That's the kind of movie that makes Lilith jump. I have seen it before but can't remember anything from it.

But before that I have stuff to do. I need to vacuum, do laundry and have a shower. Not necessarily in that order. 

Where I'm sitting

So nice

I'm sleeping so damn good when I'm sleeping next to J. He came over last night and spent the night. We watched Halloween H20 and Lilith was scared, of course. But a little less scared when I sat with his arm around me. Then we watched a bit of 2½ men to give me a change to cool down a bit. We went to bed around 2 am and fell a sleep at 3 am and then back up again att 11 am. So I'm a bit tired.

Today I should to some laundry and cleaning but don't know if I want to. I'm a bit tired and just wanna exist around the apartment and be happy. Lilith is in a really good mood today.

My mom called yesterday to say that Maja wants to be there every other weekend when Leo is with his dad. Ok! If that is what she wants I guess that is how it will be. Her feelings comes before mine in this case. With my mom it was ok as long as her and her fiance doesn't have anything planed. So it looks like I will be home alone in two weeks again

Back on track

I took a little break over the weekend. We had Leos birthday party and he was so happy. It was with a Frozen theme, he loves everything that has to do with it.

Today I will start the day with a powerwalk. I need to get started with them again. I'm always so tired and powerwalks gives me energy. But they are so boring. But with a good audi book it's not that bad.

After that it's time for a shower and then do some cleaning. How much can a person clean without going insane?

Everything is easier with an audio book

A great call

Last night when I was watching tv the phone rang. It was a number i didn't recognize so I didn't answer. Then another call from the same number so I answered. It was Dan! We got to talk for 8 minutes! That's a long time when you think about what it costs to call from USA to Sweden.

Today I need to do laundry since Leo is coming home! I need to wash his pants. I was to tired yesterday from spending saturday at the basketball cup for 13 hours. Maja and I spent the whole day yesterday watching tv. All I did was to wash her game clothes.

With a bitter aftertaste

Lilith is a happy girl, I finally came over. But because of some circumstances he might not be able to come over any more. So we'll se what happens. It's a bit of a bitter aftertaste today.

I'm thinking of going on a powerwalk today, I so need it. But it's so boring. But I need it. haha. Then I need to do laundry and all that other every day stuff. But it's not that much to do. Then I need to go to the store to get dinner. Don't know what yet.

But I will start with a powerwalk.

Some shopping

I went back to bed after the kids went to school. I was so tired. Couldn't sleep last night so it was over 1 am before I could sleep.

Today I'm going shopping for Majas birthday tomorrow. My "little" girl is going to be 11. How did that happen? She is getting so big.

But before that I need a shower and to get ready for the day. I won't have time to do anything at home before I leave or when I get home. Nice with a day to do nothing at home.

She is getting so big!