When you can't oversleep

Ouch what a start this day got. My alarm didn't sound, the alarm clock was dead, so I woke up when Kalle called and was outside and it was time to go. So up, wake up the munchkins, grab some clothes and a bag of apples. But we made it in time and lucky for the kids Kalle had a lot with him to eat and he shared that with the kids.

The game yesterday went great, the won big time. The game this morning didn't go that good. The whole team was out of focus and as a result the lost big time. Then it was a few hours left until the next game at 12.30 pm so we went home. I have some stuff to do before we leave. Like doing the dishes that I didn't have time to do yesterday. Depending on how the next game goes we will know if they will play another game, if they make it to the playoffs. I'm kind of a terrible mom, and hate this weekend, so I'm almost hoping that they wont make it. And if they do it won't be where they play now, that is close to where we live. If they do we will have to take the bs down town, and I like to avoid that because they aren't that many buses on the weekends.

A nice surprice for the kids yesterday at the opening ceremony was that their grandfather came. I knew that he had been thinking about it, but we didn't decide on anything so I didn't tell the kids. But when we stood and watched the performances I looked around and there he was. But we didn't stay for the whole ceremony, sleep was more importand, and specially for Maja so she would be fit for fight today. So when we came home around 9 pm it was straight to bed for the munchkins. Me and J went to bed to watch Greys Anatomy before we went to sleep, but I was so tired that I ended up falling a sleep on his shoulder at the end of the episode.

It's finally up!

Oh God how nice it was to get a good, long sleep. J woke me up and we cuddled for a while. Then I managed to get back to sleep when he went in the shower and woke up again when he was done.

Yesterday I got everything done after my internship plus I had time to change the sheets so I didn't have to do that when I got home. Lucky for me I did because the nails took 2½ hours to et done. But they turned out great so it was worth it. I'm gonna keep using that design for a while. But I got so tired sitting there getting spoiled.

When I got home I waitied for Linda to get ready and then we started to switch blogs. It took a bit longer than I expected because first I had to call Binero to remove so the adress didn't point to blogger where the old blog is, then I had to call them again to start up everything. Then the page wouldn't load so I had to call them again and they told me that it could take up to three hours. Wheee! It didn't take that long, but long enough. Then I could finally start. Get the design up and running, fix all the plugins and all that behind the scene stuff that people can't see but makes it easier for me. All and all it took about an hour. I'm not all done, among other things the pages is gonna get ready for phones because most of my readers reads from their phone and now it looks bad when you do. 

Besides that I don't have much to do today. I'm gonna do laundry, the sheets I changed yesterday and the carpet for the bathroom. It attracts all the fuzz so you have to wash it all the time. J just left but will come back later. Then we will cuddle in bed with our tv shows. Until then I will find something to do but I don't think I will change from my pyjamas today. Maybe to put on my sweatpants and Js hoodie.

Birtday party

I first woke up at 6.30 am, when I get up on the weekdays. Went up for a smoke and then back to bed and back to sleep and then I slept untill 11 am.

Oh God what I worked hard yesteryday. 30 minutes was all the time I had to sit down. I cleaned all the counters in the kitchen and the kitchen table, vaccumed and scrubed all the floors, picked up trash everywhere and got one garbage disposal bag and a paper bag, cooked and did the dishes twice. Maja baked and whiped the kitchen after her and soaked everything. She has gotten so big to do all that now.

Today is her birthday party. I need to wrap her gifts which I forgot yesterday, go to the grocery store and do the dishes. And of course make myself ready. Maja was happy when J promised he will be here for her party. It will be the first time he meets my mom, he has already met all the others. For now he is in the shower getting himself ready.

Moving the Swedish blog and party party

I first woke up at 10 am, but since it's the weekend and I don't have any kids at home I refused to get up. I managed to get back to sleep and when I wake up the next time J was ready to leave. No morning cuddle, no nothing. Yes, Lilith got a bit pissed, he could have woken me up for that. But he promised to come back early, so we'll see.

Moving the blog is still happening. It's been working on it. I got a tip from Jeanette to check out Etsy for a design and I hadn't even thought about that. I found a design a fell for. The problem is, that everyone knows, that there are always things you want to change on a design, no matter how much you like it, and I don't know anything about writing code in Wordpress. I used to be able to, a bit, but that was many years ago and I have lost it all. But Linda can, and she was nice enough to work her ass of last night with changing it to how I want it to be. It's almost finished, but there are still a few things left. And when the design is finished there are still stuff to be done before I can move my blog. But I'm gonna use the same adress.

Tonight we are going out. I still don't know who we are, if there will be more than just me and J. We haven't been out since November so it will be fun. Something nice to eat and drink and listen to some good music. Maybe Kalle is coming but he didn't know yet. Then I think J talked to some friends but they didn't know. Oh well, it will be fun anyway.

Easter and some arguing

As usual I spent a lot of money when we went shopping att ÖoB. I always have trouble breathing when they tell me how much it is, but then I think about how much it all would have been if I bought it all at the grocery store and then it always feels a lot better because it would have been hundreds of SEK more. Then we stopped at the grocery store to get dinner. But it have to wait until sunday because I managed to get the kids to go to Burger King with Kalle insted so the waffles have to wait. Wheee, no one is happier than me.

When we got back Kalle colored my hair so now the terrible outgrowth is gone. Soooo nice, just in time for easter and everything. Then he went home and I got in the shower to rince out the color and shave my legs.

When we got home from Burger King it was already time for the kids to go to bed, it was way past their bedtime. Lucky for us it's easter break so it doesn't matter. Me and J got in bed to watch tonights tv shows. 

Then we had a bit of a fall out, or a big one. He did something that I thought was disrespectful, so I got really pissed off. And as always when I got pissed off he got even more pissed off, and then he isn't very nice so we had an even bigger fall out. But after a lot of talking he could see why I got mad to begin with, and that won't happen again. And then he could see his own behavior when he gets angry and that is something he will work on. It's inevitable to get mad at eachother, and that's ok, but it's how you behave when you get angry that's important. To fight the right way, because the wrong way can destroy a relationship so much.

Today we are going to my mom with Kalle, but J isn't coming. We aren't in any hurry to meet eachothers parents. It will happen when it happens. At 2.30 pm we are leaving, we are eating at 3 pm. We will only be there for a couple of hours beacause then Kalle needs to go home to his mother. We will be around ten people there. My little brother is coming and that makes me happy.

When we get home I'm gonna text J and we'll see if he has gotten home from playing pool. Then he will come over and we will curl up in bed when the kids have gone to bed. Since they are on easter break they get to stay up later than usual.

Two of my favorite people 

All alone

Did I get my chicken salad? No I did not, they were out of chicken. Or they, they had some kind of chicken with chili so I took that insted. Not what I had in mind so it was an anticlimax.

The movie was great. The fun thing is that we were the only ones there, no one else wanted to see that movie obviously. I liked the movie. J did as well, but he was sorry that Norman Reedus wasn't in it that much, but I thought it didn't matter. 

After the movie we took the bus home and got in bed and watched some tv shows until it was time to sleep.

Today we were going to play some pool with a friend, but he hasn't answered yet. Or, him and J was gonna play, I don't. I was just gonna tag along. But it's nice to get out of the house. I try to do stuff like that when the kids aren't home. But now it seems like we are going anyway.

Then we will end the night with a pizza and some tv shows in bed.

Is it ok to have pms?

Yesterday wasn't as boring as Thursday was but I think that is because I talked on the phone non stop haha. So much that when it was 7 pm I only had 20% left on my battery and had to charge it. That never happens! And I didn't have time to transfer some e-books to the phone. I will try again today because I won't have the money to buy an e-book reader any time soon. First I have to save money for a new freezer.

I felt a bit sorry for myself yesterday, I had some really bad pms. No, I know, you are not suposed to write about that I have learned. Everything should be pink, fluffy and happy when you have a blog. But I have bad days, kids that talks back and have bad days sometimes and pms. But I managed to not be a total bitch to J during the evening. I was even so nice that I warned him before he came here. And he still came. That is true love.

Today I'm gonna focus on the home, I didn't yesterday because I was in pain and felt sorry for myself. So I'll do that today insted. I need to go to the grocery store, I need to get dinner for two days. And I'm always having trouble to think about something to eat for one day, now I need to think about something for two days. I don't have time to go to the store tomorrow since we are gone most of the day. We leave early and will be back again just before it's time to start dinner. A long day away.

But first of all I'm gonna finish my coffee, my second one today. Then I need to get ready and make a shopping list. Just my luck that we are all out of everything almost the week before the money comes in. But what to do besides just buy everything we are out of and look happy.

Exciting things are happening

It was a long day from home yesterday.

I discovered when I was getting ready that my mascara had gotten feets and left. Even the eye shadow had been played with and my make up remover was in a place where I never put it. In this family you shouldn't be so sure that it was Maja, it might as well been Leo, but both kids denied it. So I had to go down town without any mascara on, I looked like crazy.

A quick stop at HM to buy a new one, next stop at the ATM and then on to my nail salon where I got pampered for an hour. But I feel like they have been a bit worse the last few times so I'm thinking of going to another place next time.

When I was ready I took the bus home to Sara, with a heavy laptop. I weighs a ton. But I got some stuff done, some blog posts and some mail was sent. One mail resulted in great news that I will tell you more about later. If it wasn't for Sara and Linda I never whould have sent that letter so thank you for the feedback. 

I went back home after 5 pm, so tired in the head. At home I changed the sheets on the bed and then curled up on the couch waiting on J. When he came we went and got pizza, then back home to eat and finished the whole night with curling up in bed under the blanket watching some tv shows. But it was late, it was after 2 am when we finally went to sleep.

Today we are getting a nice visit in the outskirt of town. Rasmus is coming to visit and no one is happier than I am. I got him a huuuuge Toblerone when we went shopping two weekends ago and he is getting my Tassimo coffee machine that is just standing there colecting dust. I think he wants it at least. And it will be the first time he will be meeting J. Exciting.

When Rasmus has left I'm going to the grocery store. I'm in the mood for some meat, and that I have at home, but I need something to eat with it. I had planned to eat left overs this weekend and just walk around in my sweatspants here at home but meat is a must. I'm also gonna do some laundry, I was to tired for that when I got home yesterday. I will try to put up my picture on the wall again that fell down during the renovation, I finally got a new frame.

I will spend the night in bed watching my tv shows. J will be home with a friend watching the Swedish song contest and comes here after.

Visits all day long

I woke up just before 5 am, went out for a smoke and then back to sleep again until just before 10 am. Went out for a smoke but then went back to bed to cuddle with J and didn't want to wake up. So I went back to sleep for a little while until I got a text.

It was my cousin who wanted to do something and asked if we wanted company later. Of course! It's always nice to see her, we don't see eachother that much. So wake J up so he has time for a shower, he isn't human before his shower. And I sat down to write something and has gotten such a nice and sweet comment on my swedish blog. That makes me happy.

Later on Kalle will come over to pick up the boxes I borrowed for the renovation. He has been here a few times this week to pick them up but we always forgets it. 

Besides that it's the usual. Laundry, grocery shopping, making the beds and stuff like that. Think of something to eat would be good too.

Tonight I'm getting in bed watching tv shows. J is watching the swedish Song contest so he will be here late. So it will just be me. The originals is a must see. I'm waiting the whole week for a new episode to come online. One of my favorite shows that's fore sure.

Another day of shopping

Ooooh how nice it was to get some sleep. But at first I woke ut before 10 am but refused to get up. Managed to get back to sleep after a while but I couldn't get any more deep sleep so I stayed in bed for about an hour before I got up. J is still in bed.

Yesterday was a good shopping day. I got everything I needed but something to put the spices on. I was gonna buy something so we don't slip in the bath tub but I had forgotten to write that on the list so no wonder I forgot to buy it. The we finished it all with a coffee at Espresso House before I went to the bus and got home.

At home I took a loooong shower. After five weeks I finally get to have a shower without having to leave the apartment, it was heaven. Then I put on some sweats and placed myself on the couch in front of the tv and waited for J to come which he did a little bit after 7 pm. Then we cuddled and watched some tv shows before we went to sleep. I guess it was around 1.30 am before we turned of the lights.

Today it will be some more shopping. My little brother is nice enough to drive me to ÖoB to do some shopping. I have a long list but it's just little things. Just a few big ones like something to hang the laundry where the bed sheets will fit, a wagon for the bathroom to put my stuff now that I can't put up any shelves there and a new litter box for when the cats comes home. We leave in about an hour so I'm gonna finish this blog while J is having a shower and then it's my turn to get ready.

When I get home I'm just gonna dump everything and then I'm going home to Sara. She had her birthday this week so I'm going over there to celebrate her a bit. I need to look up when the bus leaves as well. I thought I'll take the bus to the store and do some more shopping. I need something for dinner. That can be good to have.

Later tonight J is coming over. He is just gonna watch the Swedish song contest and then he will sleep here. While he is watching that I'm gonna watch my tv shows that has aired during the night.

Tightly in the shower

There was a change of plans yesterday with dinner. Poor Lilith had to order pizza for the family haha. I have been wanting a pizza for ever so no one was happier than me.

Today I think we will just do nothing. I need to take a shower, book the laudry room and hoping there is tome on monday. Then the everyday stuff like doing the dishes and making the beds. To stand in that little shower is no fun at all, you almost have to be an acrobat to fit in there. But lucky for me it's only a week left, if they are on time.

Tonight it will be only me, J is home watching the Swedish song contest. Sooo boring. But he will come here after that. So then there will be cuddling. So nice.

Not so much space

A good night with some negative stuff

What a good night we had last night, me and J, even though everything wasn't great. Got some texts from Maja who didn't have a good time with her dad. It was chaos and disturbing noise, as always. She wanted to come home but was afraid to tell her dad. He wouldn't understand and would make her feel guilty if there is something wrong. So she decided to stay there. Kalle was on stand by if she needed to get picked up. 

We went to the movies last night and saw Daddy's home, a comedy. With one of my favorites; Mark Wahlberg. Oh my God, he looked great. We was in the little theatre and after this I won't go anywhere else. There were big, nice armchairs and lots of room for the legs. Not those little chairs where you can hardly fit and can't stretch out your legs.

When we got home we watched some tv shows and it was past 2 am when we finally went to bed. But what does that matter when the kids aren't home and we could sleep in? But I woke up at 8.45 am the first time but managed to get back to sleep. The next time I woke up when J opened the bedroom door so I guess the body was ready to wake up any time after that.

Today Kalle is coming over to switch to my old router. The new one won't work here and I'm connected to direct to my internet provider so the fact that my old router can't handle when everyone is connected and on our phones and comuters doesn't matter that much.

Besides that I will have a soft day, I'm gonna be in sweat pants all day. But I need to go to the store, I forgot to get daddys present yesterday. We are going there tomorrow to celebrate him, his birthday is on monday.

Hopefully today

There was a change of plans last night. J didn't go out last night so we spent the night in bed watching tv shows and cuddling. It was around 1.30 am before we finally went to sleep.

Now the munchkins are away, they went to Kalle to see the cats. I would have loved to come because I miss them but I got stuff to do. I need to do the dishes (bleh!), try and pick up everything that is out of place here and go grocery shopping with J before he leaves. But he'll come back later, lucky me.

Kalle is gonna drop of the kids later and then we will hopefully be able to use the dishwasher, if the nozzle fits. I´m so tired of doing the dishes by hand. It will be great to have my dishwasher back even if it's ugly as hell.

Now I need to get going so I get something done. J keeps asking when we are going to the grocery store.

Some shopping and great food

Oh what a great day I had with J.

At first we took the bus to Tuna Park and it went kind of quick to find what I was looking for. I got a calendar, pyjamapants, some underwear and a mascara.

Then we took the bus down town and went to Ming Palace. I ordered Nasi Goreng, the best thing ever. As always we got so much food so I only ate half of it, the rest I got to take home with me.

J went home to get some stuff for tomorrow and I took the bus home. Now I'm sitting here freezing. I'm gonna make the bed and then I will curl up on the couch under the blanket and wait for J to come back.

What a great weekend

Oh what a great day I had yesterday. If you don´t think about that the  munchkins went to their dad for the weekend and isn't coming home until monday.

At first I met with my new caseworker. We met at the library. It's a small world because as it turned out he went to school with my big brother. So we talked about that for a while. Then we got started with what he is helping me with. Since I have been waiting so long he is making me a priority so starting monday he is gonna look for a place for me to be.

It took about an hour and then we were done. I went looking in stores since we were down town and was lucky enough to find a great looking t-shirt. I never find clothes if it's not on the internet because they don't have my style here. And it was free since I had a gift card I got for christmas. Thank you!

Then I went home where there was peace and quiet, no handymen. So I was gonna take a nap on the couch under the blanket for an hour but J texted me that he was coming over so that didn't happen. The rest of the night was all cuddling and watching tv shows and a movie. We watched the second movie of Underworld.

Today we are going to Tuna Park, a big mall. I still have gift cards left from christmas and my birthday to spend. J is in the shower and then it's my turn to get ready. Then we are going. I guess we will be a Tuna Park for a while since Lilith are gonna try to decide what to buy. The we end the whole thing with dinner at Ming Palace. A date. How nice. Then we are going home and spend the rest of the day in bed under the blanket and watching a few tv shows and a movie.

I'm back bitches!

Wow, I took a long break. A really long one. But now I'm back. I think.

A lot has happend since last time. The main thing is that me and J are a couple now. November 20th he made me the happiest in the world. But it was close that it didn't ended like that. I told him my feelings for him, and he said that he didn't feel the same and we ended what we had. The next day I texted him and he came over for one last night together. The next day we talked and decided to give it a try. During the short period of time that we didn´t talk he had came to realize that he had feelings for me. So now I´m in seventh heaven.

We spent christmas at my moms house out in the country with my closest relatives. It was a great day. I think that the munchkins was happiest because they got new phones. Leo didn't have one since one day his phone decided to not start and then it was dead for ever. 

Today my cousin was over for a coffee. So nice. Even though we talk on the phone every day we don't see each other that often so it was nice that she came over. And then she got to meet J too. Now he has seen my cousin, my best friend, my little brother and my dad. Only my mom left. We'll see if he is here when she comes over later today. I'm gonna get a winter jacket from her, she is so nice. I have the best mom in the world.

In a relationship <3

It will feel empty

Today me and J was woken up by my mom who called. But it was 10:30 pm so it was just as good. We stayed in bed and cuddled for a while before we got up.

Today Lilith is going on an adventure. Dad had told all of us siblings to meet him at the back of his house at 2 pm and we are not allowed to have eaten before that. Exiting! That we are going somewhere to eat is easy to figure out but where is a different thing. Kalle is nice enough to watch the kids for me, and drive me to dad.

It will feel strange to sleep alone without J tonight. We have done that fore a week and you get used to it so quick. So now when it's just me in bed it will feel empty.

A wonderful saturday

Oh, I was so tired yesterday. I always am when J has been here. We fell a sleep after 4 am and woke  up again around 10 am. Well, I woke up and then woke him up for some morning cuddles. We got out of bed around 12.30 pm. 

Then Kalle came and got the kids while J and I cuddled up on the couch and watched 2 ½ men while it was raining outside. When the rain stopped he went home and I got ready. The rest of the day I just chilled. 

Today J is coming over again. We are gonna watch a horror movie and cuddle. He's spending the night as always. It's so nice not to sleep alone. 

But before he's coming over I got some stuff to do. I have to do laundry, get some shopping done and take a shower. In that order.

Can you have ice cream for dinner?

It's finally time

I never went on a powerwalk yesterday. I went to the store insted. Then Kalle came over to do the last stuff on the computer so I think they are finished now. We ended the nigh with pizza and a few movies.

Today we are celebrating my little brother who had his birthday a few weeks ago. Finally. I couldn't imagine a life without him. He is one of my best friends.

But before we are leaving I have some stuff to do at home. I need to take care of the laundry and do some cleaning. Don't I always?

Just another saturday

I got to sleep about 11 hours, that was nice. I needed it. I was so, so tired.

Saturday and I'm not gonna do a thing today. No laundry, no cleaning, no nothing. Just gonna walk around in my sweatpants. Maybe read a book. Play some WoW.

For once I don't have to go to the store. Woho! We are having fish and I have everything at home for once. But I'm thinking of going there anyway, and get some candy. The only day I don't have to go out I'm gonna go anyway. That's just like me.

I want to do something today but don't know what. Maybe go to a friend for coffee. But since the kids are home I can't. So me and my sweatpants it is!