Easter and some arguing

We had such a great time yesterday when we went to  my mom, there is nothing better than her food. My little brother was there, my cousin and his girlfriend and my aunt. And me, the munchkins and Kalle of course. We had a good meal and hung out until it was time for us to leave because Kalle had to go to his mother.

When we got home the munchkins watched a movie and had fridays chips even though it was saturday. We got home so late friday that it was straight to bed for them so the chips had to wait. So they had it last night insted. I placed myself in bed watching tv shows and waiting for J. 

But I didn't expect to have to wait as long as I did. At first he texted me that he was on his way over. He had been with a friend playing pool and had a few beers. Fine, he was on his way. Time goes and no J. I send him a text that I hope that he doesn't walk all the way over, I don't like him walking all by himself that time on a saturday. No answer. I try to call him, he doesn't answer. Then and there is when Lilith start to worry. Finally I get a text that he has gone to the pub with his friend having a few beers.

Eeeeh, excuse me? Now, I'm not that kind of girlfriend that has a problem with him doing stuff with his friends, that's not what it's about. But when he first text me that he is on his way, and then change his mind and goes and does something else without telling me about it so I'm sittting there waiting like a fool, no then Lilith isn't happy.

Finally he shows up. I wasn't angry, just disappointed. I felt kind of unimportant when he didn't even think of texting me telling me that he isn't on his way as he said, but go and does something else. We talked and I said that I know that he has been single for three years and could come and go as he wanted and change his mind the last thing he did, but he can't do that anymore. Now we are two, not just him, and then you show consideration and stick to what you said. He understood and apologised. I'm not resentful so as soon we had talked about it I let it go and the rest of the night was great. But he is sort of hung over today and Lilith can't help but being a little spiteful about it, in a loving way. Maybe I should  hide the painkillers from him.

Today will be a day at home in sweat pants and a hoodie. I didn't have time yesterday to do anything at all at home, didn't even have time to do the dishes. So I have a whole apartment that screams for some love so I guess I´ll get started.

Moms easter food

Easter and some arguing

As usual I spent a lot of money when we went shopping att ÖoB. I always have trouble breathing when they tell me how much it is, but then I think about how much it all would have been if I bought it all at the grocery store and then it always feels a lot better because it would have been hundreds of SEK more. Then we stopped at the grocery store to get dinner. But it have to wait until sunday because I managed to get the kids to go to Burger King with Kalle insted so the waffles have to wait. Wheee, no one is happier than me.

When we got back Kalle colored my hair so now the terrible outgrowth is gone. Soooo nice, just in time for easter and everything. Then he went home and I got in the shower to rince out the color and shave my legs.

When we got home from Burger King it was already time for the kids to go to bed, it was way past their bedtime. Lucky for us it's easter break so it doesn't matter. Me and J got in bed to watch tonights tv shows. 

Then we had a bit of a fall out, or a big one. He did something that I thought was disrespectful, so I got really pissed off. And as always when I got pissed off he got even more pissed off, and then he isn't very nice so we had an even bigger fall out. But after a lot of talking he could see why I got mad to begin with, and that won't happen again. And then he could see his own behavior when he gets angry and that is something he will work on. It's inevitable to get mad at eachother, and that's ok, but it's how you behave when you get angry that's important. To fight the right way, because the wrong way can destroy a relationship so much.

Today we are going to my mom with Kalle, but J isn't coming. We aren't in any hurry to meet eachothers parents. It will happen when it happens. At 2.30 pm we are leaving, we are eating at 3 pm. We will only be there for a couple of hours beacause then Kalle needs to go home to his mother. We will be around ten people there. My little brother is coming and that makes me happy.

When we get home I'm gonna text J and we'll see if he has gotten home from playing pool. Then he will come over and we will curl up in bed when the kids have gone to bed. Since they are on easter break they get to stay up later than usual.

Two of my favorite people 

A really bad day

Bleh what a bad day I had yesterday, and it started out so good.

Kalle came over and we plugged in the dishwasher and everything worked just fine. While it did the dishes we went to Elgiganten. I never goes anywhere while the dishwasher  or the washing machine is on, but nothing has ever happen so why should it now?

I got a new router, the one I got can't handle all the phones and computers at the same time. Kalle found a router online and I got it for a good price. We get back home happy.

When I got home there is water all over the floor, a lot of water. It's a whole in the tube to the dishwasher. Noooo! So Kalle and I had no other choice but to throw it out, and Lilith wanted to cry. So now I have to do the dishes by hand until I have saved up for a new one.

We connect the router and everything is fine, at first. Then the wifi starts to go down for both me and Kalle. Not for the munchkins or J though. Kalle and I have the same phones, so something with them and the router isn't good. It ends with me turning of the wifi on the phone. So I went from a dishwasher and a  new router to no router and doing the dishes by hand.

Kalle is soon on his way over here with his router, that we know can handle our phones so we know for sure if the problem is with the router and not my walls or anything like that. But I don´t think so because then the munchkins and J whould have a problem too.

Later we are going home to my mother. She is having a candle party and I have to get a new lamp for my wax melts. Leo broke mine by accident. Normally candle parties isn't for me but now I don't have much choice. I have checked all the stores down town but haven't found anything. Oh, I found one I bought before but that one ended with me having wax all over my table. And it's ugly. So now I have to ruin myself with one from Partylite.

 

I'm back bitches!

Wow, I took a long break. A really long one. But now I'm back. I think.

A lot has happend since last time. The main thing is that me and J are a couple now. November 20th he made me the happiest in the world. But it was close that it didn't ended like that. I told him my feelings for him, and he said that he didn't feel the same and we ended what we had. The next day I texted him and he came over for one last night together. The next day we talked and decided to give it a try. During the short period of time that we didn´t talk he had came to realize that he had feelings for me. So now I´m in seventh heaven.

We spent christmas at my moms house out in the country with my closest relatives. It was a great day. I think that the munchkins was happiest because they got new phones. Leo didn't have one since one day his phone decided to not start and then it was dead for ever. 

Today my cousin was over for a coffee. So nice. Even though we talk on the phone every day we don't see each other that often so it was nice that she came over. And then she got to meet J too. Now he has seen my cousin, my best friend, my little brother and my dad. Only my mom left. We'll see if he is here when she comes over later today. I'm gonna get a winter jacket from her, she is so nice. I have the best mom in the world.

In a relationship <3

A little update

Here I am. It hasn't happend a lot since I last wrote.

Saturday we went to my mom to celebrate her boyfriend turning 60. It was verry nice with happe people and great food.

Yesterday I went to the breakfast group that has started again after the summer break. It's in a new place and I got lost a couple of times before I could find the right place.

Today I'm gonna take a nap on the couch. Me and  J has fallen a sleep so late this whole week. Around 2 am. Then back up again at 6.30 am. That's not enough sleep for me.

Yes, J is still sleeping here. He has been sleeping here for a week now and it's nice with some company. I feel so good with him.

It will feel empty

Today me and J was woken up by my mom who called. But it was 10:30 pm so it was just as good. We stayed in bed and cuddled for a while before we got up.

Today Lilith is going on an adventure. Dad had told all of us siblings to meet him at the back of his house at 2 pm and we are not allowed to have eaten before that. Exiting! That we are going somewhere to eat is easy to figure out but where is a different thing. Kalle is nice enough to watch the kids for me, and drive me to dad.

It will feel strange to sleep alone without J tonight. We have done that fore a week and you get used to it so quick. So now when it's just me in bed it will feel empty.

A little break

Oups, I took a little break over the weekend because J has been here pretty much the whole time but a few hours in the middle of the day.

On saturday we went to celebrate my mom who is having her birthday today. Happy birthday mom! It's always nice to go out on the country where she lives. And I got to see Maja who spent the weekend there. Rasmus was there too, so great to see him.

Today J are coming over. It will be the fourth day in a row that he is here. He is coming around 8 pm tonight. It's the first time that he comes over while the kids are still up. But he gets along with them just fine. Especially with Leo.

But before that I have some stuff I need to get done. Like having a shower and go to the store. And come up with something for dinner. The never ending story. 

So nice

I'm sleeping so damn good when I'm sleeping next to J. He came over last night and spent the night. We watched Halloween H20 and Lilith was scared, of course. But a little less scared when I sat with his arm around me. Then we watched a bit of 2½ men to give me a change to cool down a bit. We went to bed around 2 am and fell a sleep at 3 am and then back up again att 11 am. So I'm a bit tired.

Today I should to some laundry and cleaning but don't know if I want to. I'm a bit tired and just wanna exist around the apartment and be happy. Lilith is in a really good mood today.

My mom called yesterday to say that Maja wants to be there every other weekend when Leo is with his dad. Ok! If that is what she wants I guess that is how it will be. Her feelings comes before mine in this case. With my mom it was ok as long as her and her fiance doesn't have anything planed. So it looks like I will be home alone in two weeks again

I'm back!

I took a well deserved rest from the blog. When it's starting to feel like a must more than fun to update it's time to take a break.

I'm having some time to myself this week. Leo is with his dad for their summer trip and Maja is with my mom. So yesterday all I did was rest. I even took a two hour nap on the couch. I'm just so tired all the time. Being a single parent full time is hard.

Today I'm going to a movie with Kalle. We are gonna see the new Terminator. But before that I have some cleaning and laundry to do. Didn't do anything yesterday so now it's twice as much. But it was worth it.

When there is nothing to write about

I guess I took a break again, without thinking about it. It happens when there is nothing to write about. Not that I have that much to write about now.

Friday today and I need it so bad. I'm so, so tired. Yesterday I took a nap for 3 hours and that never happens. I can't sleep during the day. But yesterday I could.

Later my cousin is coming over with her two kids. She was over two days ago as well. I always have a lot of fun with her. That's why I talk to her every day on the phone. We talk for about 6-8 hours every day.

My mom is coming over as well after work. We forgot Leos easter egg when we were there for easter so she is coming over with it. It's gonna be a full house here. I like it.

I got to talk to him!

Wow, I haven't written in a few days. But there haven't been anything to write about.

Thursday I went home to my friend Linda. We ended up partying until 5 am the next morning. We had so much fun and it was just what I needed. Leo was with his dad an Maja was with my mother.

Yesterday I was on the couch wathing tv when the phone rings. It was Dan! And we have our system for him calling so I hung up thinking that was it. He called one time to show me that he's thinking about me. But nooo, he called again! So I got to talk to him for 4 sweet minutes. It was great to hear his voice again, it has been almost a year since I last got to talk to him. He will keep me updated on his case so I hope he will call me again.

The reason he haven't sent any letters is because they have stopped selling stamps. Don't know why. So as soon as he gets any he will send me the three letters he has written me. I was so happy he called that I couldn't stop smiling.

Today we are going home to my mom to spend easter there. Maja will come home with us when we leave there. It has been a great two days just me but now I'm ready to get my kids home. To bad Leo isn't coming until monday.