Will there even be a new blog?

Oh God how tired I am. We were in bed talking last night, me and J, as we often do. So the time just went flying by before we got to sleep. So I took my sleeping pills late and I can still feel the effect of them. So for the moment everything is a bit fuzzy.

That whole thing with looking for a design didn't go great. I spent hours looking and couldn't find a single one. Not even one to use as a ground to keep building on. And even though I seached for free designs I almost only found ones that costs and that won't happen. I won't pay $50-$70 for a design, that's just how it is. So worst case I will stay here on blogger. But I prefer Wordpress any day of the week. And do my own design is not an option. Sure, I could probably change how wide it is and stuff like that but nothing else. I was so disappointed.

Friday today and the last day at my internship for this week. Sure, I like it there, but it's so nice to have time off. Now I enjoy it more than when I just was home every day doing nothing. I look forward to the weekends in a whole new way.

The only bad thing is that the munchkins are going to their dad for the weekend and then it will be empty, silent and boring at home. But you just have to the the best of if and sleep in and stuff like that.

After my internship I'm going down town. The munchkins needs more socks, as always. I don't understand where theirs are going. Leo refuses to wear socks but at the community youth center he has to. Then I know that there were something else I was gonna buy, but I forgot what it was. We'll see if I can remember it when I get down there.

Then I will take the bus to the grocery store and shop for the weekend. I think I will buy a chicken salad for dinner today. J and I was talking about it last night and I wanted one so bad. Yes, I think I will today.

Munchkin,  you will be missed 

Easter and some arguing

As usual I spent a lot of money when we went shopping att ÖoB. I always have trouble breathing when they tell me how much it is, but then I think about how much it all would have been if I bought it all at the grocery store and then it always feels a lot better because it would have been hundreds of SEK more. Then we stopped at the grocery store to get dinner. But it have to wait until sunday because I managed to get the kids to go to Burger King with Kalle insted so the waffles have to wait. Wheee, no one is happier than me.

When we got back Kalle colored my hair so now the terrible outgrowth is gone. Soooo nice, just in time for easter and everything. Then he went home and I got in the shower to rince out the color and shave my legs.

When we got home from Burger King it was already time for the kids to go to bed, it was way past their bedtime. Lucky for us it's easter break so it doesn't matter. Me and J got in bed to watch tonights tv shows. 

Then we had a bit of a fall out, or a big one. He did something that I thought was disrespectful, so I got really pissed off. And as always when I got pissed off he got even more pissed off, and then he isn't very nice so we had an even bigger fall out. But after a lot of talking he could see why I got mad to begin with, and that won't happen again. And then he could see his own behavior when he gets angry and that is something he will work on. It's inevitable to get mad at eachother, and that's ok, but it's how you behave when you get angry that's important. To fight the right way, because the wrong way can destroy a relationship so much.

Today we are going to my mom with Kalle, but J isn't coming. We aren't in any hurry to meet eachothers parents. It will happen when it happens. At 2.30 pm we are leaving, we are eating at 3 pm. We will only be there for a couple of hours beacause then Kalle needs to go home to his mother. We will be around ten people there. My little brother is coming and that makes me happy.

When we get home I'm gonna text J and we'll see if he has gotten home from playing pool. Then he will come over and we will curl up in bed when the kids have gone to bed. Since they are on easter break they get to stay up later than usual.

Two of my favorite people 

It can only get better

Fuck what a crappy day I had yesterday.

It started with the hanger in the hallway falling down. I think we had to much on it. So remove all the winter clothes and then put it back up again.

Down town after the internship to drop of some papper. I was gonna buy a huuuuge coffee mug to have at my internship, they only have small ones. Did I find a big one? Of course not. They always have it at In&Finn but not this time. I finally find a half big, pink mug that I buy. I was also gonna bye socks for Leo only to discover that I left my Mastercard at home in the other jacket.

I get home and is gonna go get the box for the winter clothes from the basement. I always put it so it's easy to get since I take it up twice a year but not we had a moving company first empty the storage and then put everything back. So the box has of course ended up way back against the wall, under a lot of other boxes. It takes me 15 minutes just to get to it.

When I finally get back up to the apartment what do I see? A big coffee mug of course, I already had one and didn't have to buy one. There and then I gave up and curled up on the couch for the rest of the afternoon.

Today will hopefully get better. After my internship I'm taking the bus to the store to buy me a salad. I have been in the mood for a chicken salad so I will have that today. Then home to change the sheets on the bed, it is friday.

Later we are going to a movie. We are gonna see Triple 9 with Norman Reedus from The Walking Dead. It will be nice to get out of the house for a while. The munchkins are going to their dad for the wekend and comes home on monday so we have plenty of time to do stuff.

Now it's time to get ready for the internship. Oh, how I can't wait until I get to sleep in.

In my mailbox

I haven't been reading a lot so I haven't ordered any books lately. But now I miss curling up on the couch with a book while I wait for it to be time to start dinner. The problem is that I only have bits of book series and I refuse to start reading before I have all of the books because I don't wanna wait for any books when I wanna read them, I want them all.

So last week I placed two orders, one with play.com and one with Bokus for both me and the kids. I prefer to read in english and even with the shipping from England it's still cheaper to order them second hand at play.com so I strongly recommend play.com if you read in english. For the kids, and books that doesn't print in english, I order from Bokus.

A really good weekend

We got everything we needed yesterday almost. And I can say that it's lucky for me that my dad has a big car because wow, I got a lot. It costed me over a 1000 SEK to get everything. But Lilith was a good girl and I sticked to the shopping list, but I got some candy too. J kept an eye on me to see that I didn't buy anything I didn't need. 

After we were finished my little brother took me home and we dumped everything I had gotten and then we got back in the car again. We dropped J of on the way and then my little brother took me to Sara. I was there for a few hours and celebrated her birthday and then Kalle was nice enough to come and get me. We went to Burger King for something to eat, then to the grocery store and then he dropped me off at home.

At home I put on my sweat pants and curled up under the blanket in bed and watched my tv shows. J was at home watching the Swedish music contest but came over after that. We continued to watch tv shows and cuddle, I think se was around 1,30 am before it was time to sleep.

Today I was gonna go home to Linda but she didn't feel to good so we will have coffee some other day. As for now it's only I that are up, J is still sleeping. Later on Kalle is coming over to dye my hair, it's about time. I haven't done it during these 5 weeks of renovation. I haven't felt like going outside with dye in my hair to go take a shower and wash it out. But now it's finally time.

Then he is gonna put up a shelf in the toilet as well. I can't wait until tomorrow when they bring in the bath tub so I can start unpacking everything and put everything in it's place. Then it's only the washing machine left that I hope they will plug in on monday or tuesday. Then my home is complete and everything as it should be. And the cats can home home again.

Another day of shopping

Ooooh how nice it was to get some sleep. But at first I woke ut before 10 am but refused to get up. Managed to get back to sleep after a while but I couldn't get any more deep sleep so I stayed in bed for about an hour before I got up. J is still in bed.

Yesterday was a good shopping day. I got everything I needed but something to put the spices on. I was gonna buy something so we don't slip in the bath tub but I had forgotten to write that on the list so no wonder I forgot to buy it. The we finished it all with a coffee at Espresso House before I went to the bus and got home.

At home I took a loooong shower. After five weeks I finally get to have a shower without having to leave the apartment, it was heaven. Then I put on some sweats and placed myself on the couch in front of the tv and waited for J to come which he did a little bit after 7 pm. Then we cuddled and watched some tv shows before we went to sleep. I guess it was around 1.30 am before we turned of the lights.

Today it will be some more shopping. My little brother is nice enough to drive me to ÖoB to do some shopping. I have a long list but it's just little things. Just a few big ones like something to hang the laundry where the bed sheets will fit, a wagon for the bathroom to put my stuff now that I can't put up any shelves there and a new litter box for when the cats comes home. We leave in about an hour so I'm gonna finish this blog while J is having a shower and then it's my turn to get ready.

When I get home I'm just gonna dump everything and then I'm going home to Sara. She had her birthday this week so I'm going over there to celebrate her a bit. I need to look up when the bus leaves as well. I thought I'll take the bus to the store and do some more shopping. I need something for dinner. That can be good to have.

Later tonight J is coming over. He is just gonna watch the Swedish song contest and then he will sleep here. While he is watching that I'm gonna watch my tv shows that has aired during the night.

Just a few days left

God I'm tired and we went to bed at a reasonable time last night. Before it was 11 pm.

I didn´t get to many minutes in bed yesterday after the munchkins and J hade left before the doorbell rang. Just my luck! De come to fix something with the radiators so I had to get out of bed. Insted I made some coffee I had in front of the computer. 

Today I´m going shopping with J and a friend after J is done at school. We are meeting up down town. I need to buy a new pen (I only buy one kind), something for the spices because right now they are just standing on the bench next to the stove and then I need to buy a new frame for my picture of Chester Bennington. It broke during the start of the renovation, one of the handymen broke it. But it´s my own fault, we were suposed to empty the walls but I forgot to take it down. Then I think we would end the whole shopping thing with a coffee. 

Then it´s time to get home and unpack everything, have a shower and shave my legs. They are coming to clean the bathroom today so after that I can have a long shower and enjoy my own shower. Now it's just the bath tub and the washing machine and then everything is done. Then I can finally get the cats home!

A really bad day

Bleh what a bad day I had yesterday, and it started out so good.

Kalle came over and we plugged in the dishwasher and everything worked just fine. While it did the dishes we went to Elgiganten. I never goes anywhere while the dishwasher  or the washing machine is on, but nothing has ever happen so why should it now?

I got a new router, the one I got can't handle all the phones and computers at the same time. Kalle found a router online and I got it for a good price. We get back home happy.

When I got home there is water all over the floor, a lot of water. It's a whole in the tube to the dishwasher. Noooo! So Kalle and I had no other choice but to throw it out, and Lilith wanted to cry. So now I have to do the dishes by hand until I have saved up for a new one.

We connect the router and everything is fine, at first. Then the wifi starts to go down for both me and Kalle. Not for the munchkins or J though. Kalle and I have the same phones, so something with them and the router isn't good. It ends with me turning of the wifi on the phone. So I went from a dishwasher and a  new router to no router and doing the dishes by hand.

Kalle is soon on his way over here with his router, that we know can handle our phones so we know for sure if the problem is with the router and not my walls or anything like that. But I don´t think so because then the munchkins and J whould have a problem too.

Later we are going home to my mother. She is having a candle party and I have to get a new lamp for my wax melts. Leo broke mine by accident. Normally candle parties isn't for me but now I don't have much choice. I have checked all the stores down town but haven't found anything. Oh, I found one I bought before but that one ended with me having wax all over my table. And it's ugly. So now I have to ruin myself with one from Partylite.

 

Some shopping and great food

Oh what a great day I had with J.

At first we took the bus to Tuna Park and it went kind of quick to find what I was looking for. I got a calendar, pyjamapants, some underwear and a mascara.

Then we took the bus down town and went to Ming Palace. I ordered Nasi Goreng, the best thing ever. As always we got so much food so I only ate half of it, the rest I got to take home with me.

J went home to get some stuff for tomorrow and I took the bus home. Now I'm sitting here freezing. I'm gonna make the bed and then I will curl up on the couch under the blanket and wait for J to come back.

What a great weekend

Oh what a great day I had yesterday. If you don´t think about that the  munchkins went to their dad for the weekend and isn't coming home until monday.

At first I met with my new caseworker. We met at the library. It's a small world because as it turned out he went to school with my big brother. So we talked about that for a while. Then we got started with what he is helping me with. Since I have been waiting so long he is making me a priority so starting monday he is gonna look for a place for me to be.

It took about an hour and then we were done. I went looking in stores since we were down town and was lucky enough to find a great looking t-shirt. I never find clothes if it's not on the internet because they don't have my style here. And it was free since I had a gift card I got for christmas. Thank you!

Then I went home where there was peace and quiet, no handymen. So I was gonna take a nap on the couch under the blanket for an hour but J texted me that he was coming over so that didn't happen. The rest of the night was all cuddling and watching tv shows and a movie. We watched the second movie of Underworld.

Today we are going to Tuna Park, a big mall. I still have gift cards left from christmas and my birthday to spend. J is in the shower and then it's my turn to get ready. Then we are going. I guess we will be a Tuna Park for a while since Lilith are gonna try to decide what to buy. The we end the whole thing with dinner at Ming Palace. A date. How nice. Then we are going home and spend the rest of the day in bed under the blanket and watching a few tv shows and a movie.

I love my new clothes

Yey, friday! I got that friday feeling you get from knowing you don't have to get up early tomorrow. It will be great!

When the kids comes home from school we are gonna go grocery shopping for the weekend. I need to think of food for the whole weekend. Good Luck Lilith. I can't even think of food for one day, so me coming up with food for the whole weekend, ain't gonna happen.

After that we are gonna be at home doing nothing. Maybe the kids will go out and play when we get home. I'm gonna do some cleaning. And I need to wash up my new clothes that I'm gonna collect when we go to the store. And the kids movies too.

My new clothes