Hard decisions

It was hard getting up this morning. So hard that I went back to sleep as soon as I turned off the alarm. I have been so tired the whole week but don't know why. I need the weekend.

We had a meeting with my boss yesterday and it went great, and not so great. The good thing is that they want to hire me when my mentor retires in the end of September. The bad thing is that it's not full time, only 60% and I won't be able to live on that kind of money. I have to talk to my case worker about that next wednesday. And May 25th we are having another meeting with my boss so I guess we'll talk about it with her as well. I hope we can figure something out so I get to be there full time because I like that place a lot. But I have to be able to pay my bills too.

I went to a parent-teacher conference with Maja yesterday and as always it was all good. She is between 85% - 100% in all classes but gym class. There they are still going by how well they could swim in third grade and she had a hard time with learning how to swim. I think they should be going by what she has done this semester but I guess not.

Today I got a lot to do at home, I was to tired to do it yesterday because I got home late from the parent-teacher conference. I can't wait for tonight when the kids have gone to bed so I can curl up in bed with J and watch some tv shows, be close and just let go of everything I'm thinking about with money and all that.

Time for a meeting

As usual I woke Leo up at 6.30 am so he has time for a shower before school and didn't think about that they are going to the bath-house so he's showering there, so he could stay in bed for another 30 minutes. Insted I went to wake up J and stayed in bed longer than I planed. But its so nice to curl up against him.

Today after my internship I'm taking the bus to the store and then home to drop everything off. After that there is a parent-teacher conference with Maja. I already know that everything is fine but it's one of those things where you as a parent just have to do it. That means that I won't have time to do laundry today but so be it. I got the whole weekend later to do it.

We went to bed late so I'm not too fresh today. So I hope I have time after to curl up on the couch. I did it yesterday but the phone kept ringing and buzzing so I didn't get much rest. Better luck today.

Yesterday Maja was shopping for presents with my aunt. My aunt couldn't come when we celebrated Majas birthday so they went down town yesterday insted. Maja picked three books and some felt pens.

Today my case worker comes to my internship as well. He does it every wednesday. I think it's a bit to often, we don't have that much to talk about when everything is going just fine. I don't think anyone else would come to the meeting either. I do need to inform him on when I'm taking my summer leave so I guess I'll do that today.

Misunderstanding

I had totaly misunderstood everything yesterday. It was Girls 04 that went on to the playoffs and Maja played with Girls 05. But the whole team were there to cheer them on, and cheered them on to a silver. Maja called me and told me that Girls 04 had made it to the finals. And as I said, they got a silver. Me, I had sooo much fun doing everything I didn't have time to do this weekend. I'm still behind on laundry so I know what I will do this week.

Maja and J are still sleeping, they get to sleep in on mondays. Some people are lucky. Leo are in the kitchen having breakfast. He has a cough but no fever and is kind of the same so he will go to school. But with a note saying he will nog be in gym class today. He would never make it. So we'll see if they call from school saying he needs to come home but I don't think so. He is not that bad, then he would have gotten to stay home if I thought he couldn't make it.

This afternoon I will be doing laundry as I said and take care of the apartment. Even though I was cleaning until dinner yesterday it's still stuff that needs to be done. So I'll do it while the laundry machine is going. If I'm lucky I'll have time to curl up on the couch for a while, didn't go to sleep until midnight last night. So right now I'm looking forward to coffee at work a bit extra. I will need it today.

A day without basketball

It went really well for Maja yesterday, their team only lost one game and won the other two so that means that they got a spot in the playoffs. But in the afternoon Leo started feeling ill so Maja had to go to the last game without us, her coach was nice enough to come get her and Kalle took her home. Leo felt so bad that he went to bed at 8 pm without protest. He got some cough medicine so he could sleep.

This morning it was time to get up at 6.30 am and we got up without any trouble. Since Leo was feeling ill it was only Maja who left with Kalle, the rest of us stayed at home. So when I got her up and made sure she was getting ready I got back in to bed again and went back to sleep. I woke up when J put his arm around me, the best way to wake up.

Today I will do everything I didn't have time to do this weekend because of all the games. Like doing laundry and going to the grocery store. We have lived of left overs since there haven't been any time to go to the store or cook. But now it will be nice with a normal day. These weekends wear you out. Lucky it's only once a year.

A not so quiet sunday

What a great day we had yesterday, Maja was so happy! And that what it's all about. She got great gifts too. Inlines and protection, an android figure that is a speaker to her phone, money and more money, a gift card, shorts and a pretty necklace. The only bad thing was how it ended. She had a little to much to eat so she threw up. It's not the first time that that happend so I thought she had learned, but no. First they had Chinese with Kalle for lunch and then all that sweet stuff, it was just to much for her.

Today I had planned a quiet day until I got two letters in the mail at the end of the week. The first one was that they are coming to adjust the termostat so I have to empty the closet so they can get to it, and the other thing is that they are painting the wood on the balcony so I have to empty the balcony. Oh well, then I know what I'm doing today. Plus all that every day stuff you have to do. Then I need to think of something to eat and go to the store. And laundry. It's not like I will just sitt there today.

Birtday party

I first woke up at 6.30 am, when I get up on the weekdays. Went up for a smoke and then back to bed and back to sleep and then I slept untill 11 am.

Oh God what I worked hard yesteryday. 30 minutes was all the time I had to sit down. I cleaned all the counters in the kitchen and the kitchen table, vaccumed and scrubed all the floors, picked up trash everywhere and got one garbage disposal bag and a paper bag, cooked and did the dishes twice. Maja baked and whiped the kitchen after her and soaked everything. She has gotten so big to do all that now.

Today is her birthday party. I need to wrap her gifts which I forgot yesterday, go to the grocery store and do the dishes. And of course make myself ready. Maja was happy when J promised he will be here for her party. It will be the first time he meets my mom, he has already met all the others. For now he is in the shower getting himself ready.

Hopefully some renovation

I was so confused when my alarm went off and I couldn't stop it. But it wasn't my alarm, it was Js. But shortly after that my alarm went off and it was time to get up. 

I would rather go back in to bed when the munchkins have left for school but it tuesday and that means the breakfast group. I hope I get to stay a bit longer than the last time. But I have to leave a bit early because I have some paper to drop of and then I need to go to the store and get some cigarets. But God, the coffee will taste good.

After the breakfast group it's time to get home to get things done here. If I haven't already done it. Sometimes I have time to fix it all before I leave for the breakfast group, I have about an hour after the munchkins have left for school before I need to leave. 

This afternoon will be nice and quiet, I hope. I might have the home to take care of, or maybe I have already done it. 

Maja had her picture taken at the basketball practice last night. Great pictures but wow, they were expensive. Over 600 SEK for a package. So I guess I'll just order 2 pictures. One for me and one for Kalle. He wanted one too. I was thinking about ordering them this afternoon.

There isn't much happening with the renovation. Well, I can here them outside the apartment but here it's not happening that much. I hope the put in the porcelain today when I'm at the breakfast group. I'm longing for a toilet so I don't have to go out every time.

The coffee will taste great today

A good night with some negative stuff

What a good night we had last night, me and J, even though everything wasn't great. Got some texts from Maja who didn't have a good time with her dad. It was chaos and disturbing noise, as always. She wanted to come home but was afraid to tell her dad. He wouldn't understand and would make her feel guilty if there is something wrong. So she decided to stay there. Kalle was on stand by if she needed to get picked up. 

We went to the movies last night and saw Daddy's home, a comedy. With one of my favorites; Mark Wahlberg. Oh my God, he looked great. We was in the little theatre and after this I won't go anywhere else. There were big, nice armchairs and lots of room for the legs. Not those little chairs where you can hardly fit and can't stretch out your legs.

When we got home we watched some tv shows and it was past 2 am when we finally went to bed. But what does that matter when the kids aren't home and we could sleep in? But I woke up at 8.45 am the first time but managed to get back to sleep. The next time I woke up when J opened the bedroom door so I guess the body was ready to wake up any time after that.

Today Kalle is coming over to switch to my old router. The new one won't work here and I'm connected to direct to my internet provider so the fact that my old router can't handle when everyone is connected and on our phones and comuters doesn't matter that much.

Besides that I will have a soft day, I'm gonna be in sweat pants all day. But I need to go to the store, I forgot to get daddys present yesterday. We are going there tomorrow to celebrate him, his birthday is on monday.

Got a new love

Yesterday I finally got the laundry done. So I guess that the laundry room is like the power to the front door, it doesn't work on weekends. Oh God I'm so tired of this renovation allready.

My new phone arrived yesterday! But we had some problems getting it to work. At first it wouldn't connect to Googles servers so I couldn't download any apps. Then the sim card was to big so Kalle had to go to Tuna Park and the Telenor store so they could cut it to the right size.

My head got so tired with fixing everything, it took an hour or two. Find and download all the apps, remember username and passwords for everything and so on and so on. But I finally got it all done. But I was so tired that we went to bed around 11 pm and I was sleeping before midnight.

Today it's the breakfast group for me. I would rather just get back in to bed and go back to sleep but nope, that ain't gonna happen. After the breakfastgroup I was gonna go home to my aunt and help her with her tablet but I got a sick Maja at home and don't wanna be away more than I have to so we have to do that some other time.

My new love

New phone and a sick Maja

I didn't get any laundry done yesterday. Even though the power was on neither the washer or he dryer worked. I think it's because of the renovation, because the power to the front door doesn't work on weekends either. So I'm gonna try again today 2-6 pm.

My new phone has arrived! So Kalle is coming by with it later. We had to order it in his name because I only had cash and couldn't pay it with my credit card so he was nice enough to do that. So after work he will get it and come here with it. Up until then my job is to empty this phone. It's mostly pictures. Some pictures are gonna go on the computer and some on the new phone. All my print screens are going in to my new phone.

I got a sick Maja home this morning, no school for her. She has just been on the couch all day and is to tired to do anything. She is so pale but with red cheeks. No basketball practice for her today. She complains of a sore throat and a head ache and is coughing like crazy.

So nice

I'm sleeping so damn good when I'm sleeping next to J. He came over last night and spent the night. We watched Halloween H20 and Lilith was scared, of course. But a little less scared when I sat with his arm around me. Then we watched a bit of 2½ men to give me a change to cool down a bit. We went to bed around 2 am and fell a sleep at 3 am and then back up again att 11 am. So I'm a bit tired.

Today I should to some laundry and cleaning but don't know if I want to. I'm a bit tired and just wanna exist around the apartment and be happy. Lilith is in a really good mood today.

My mom called yesterday to say that Maja wants to be there every other weekend when Leo is with his dad. Ok! If that is what she wants I guess that is how it will be. Her feelings comes before mine in this case. With my mom it was ok as long as her and her fiance doesn't have anything planed. So it looks like I will be home alone in two weeks again

Let's party!

I couldn't sleep last night so I slept in this morning insted. And so did Leo. He didn't fall a sleep untill 11 pm last night.

Today is going to be a great day. Leo is going to his dad, and Maja is going to my mom for the weekend. Woho! Of course we will go out tonight. And by us I mean me, Kalle and my little brother. The weather is great so we will sit outside at the pub and just chill. I can't wait.

But before that I have stuff to do. I need to do some cleaning, laundry and have a shower. My mom is picking up Maja after work so I have to be ready until then. Because then it's party time!

Given up

I'm so tired today so I stayed in bed until 7.45 am. And I usually get up at 6.30 am.

Today I'm meeting up with my case worker at 10 am to talk about my internship. What places she can call and so on. After that I will have to find something to do until 12.30 pm when the tattoo place opens. I'm gonna go and see how much my next tattoo will cost, and maybe book an appointment. As usual it will be something that has to do with music. Something from the song Given Up by Linkin Park.

Then it's home to do some cleaning as usual. And wait for Maja to come home from school so we can go to the store and do some grocery shopping for the weekend. I have no idea what to eat. I hope she does.

Blue screen

Wow, I slept until 11 am, that felt good.

Yesterday at my brother was fun. As always with him. My mother talked about taking Maja for a weekend. That would be great. I love spending time with my kids but sometimes it's nice to do something else.

Today Kalle is coming over to try to figure out why Maja gets a blue screen on her computer from time to time. She is not happy about it. And I understand her. I would go crazy.

Me, I'm gonna clean and do laudry. The dishwasher is already running. Maja filled it up for me.

A long weekend

Oh what a long weekend is has been with Majas basketball cup. They won one game and lost the others. And all the parents helped in long shifts to keep score in other games. Yesterday we were there over 12 hours. For Majas last game Rasmus came and watched. A nice surprise.

Today I'm just gonna do nothing and enjoy every second of it. I'm gonna do the usual as taking care of the dishes but no laundry or nothing like that. Just gonna walk around in my sweat pants and enjoy it being Sunday.

No doing laundry today

What a day!

What a day we had yesterday. We celebrated Majas birthday and it was a very happy girl that went to sleep around 9 pm. She got money, books, gift card and a case for her mobile When it all was finished I was so tired that we had left-overs for dinner. Then we spent the evening on the couch watching tv.

Today I need to do some laundry so that Leo has pants for school and Maja clothes for her basketball practice. And then the usual cleaning.

Tonight I might come over. He will be here late at night since they had a gig yesterday and will be getting their instruments tonight. So he might come over after that.

My company today

Happy birthday!

My baby girl is turning 11 today! She is getting so big. She's already to big to give her mother a kiss good night.

I need to go on a powerwalk today, haven't been on one of those in ages. So it's time. I hate them, but at least I have my audio books to keep me company. I will go 6 km today I think. My usual powerwalk.

When I get home it's time for a shower and go to the store. But today dinner is easy, we will have Majas favorite since it's her birthday. We will have Swedish hash. Poor Leo and me, we hate it.

Some shopping

I went back to bed after the kids went to school. I was so tired. Couldn't sleep last night so it was over 1 am before I could sleep.

Today I'm going shopping for Majas birthday tomorrow. My "little" girl is going to be 11. How did that happen? She is getting so big.

But before that I need a shower and to get ready for the day. I won't have time to do anything at home before I leave or when I get home. Nice with a day to do nothing at home.

She is getting so big!

Just a thursday

I woke up 5 minutes before the alarm from I texting me. So I got up and made some coffee. It was only me awake at that time so it was nice and quiet.

Today I'm going home to a friend for coffee. Me and Linda have know each other since I was about 5 years old. We don't see each other that often even though we live in the same neigborhood. She lives like 5 minutes away.

This afternoon Maja has her basketball practice. They are training for the basketball cup on sunday. This time I hope that nobody's sick because I wanna go and watch her play. If she is playing, there will be only ten players.

I went and got my nails done yesterday. At a new place, not that crappy place I was at last time. And my nails look so good now. It costed a bit more but it was so worth it.

Without you

So, yesterday I was talking to my little brother, as I do a lot. And we came to talk about World of Warcraft, again. And it ended up with me starting to play, again. I used to play a lot a few years ago but then I quited. Don't know why.

Friday today and my little man is going to his dad for the weekend. How I will miss him. He's coming home on monday again. It will be a long weekend without him.

Maja is going to a party at her school tonight, between 7.30 pm and 9 pm. What will I do while she is away? Probably play a bit of WoW I guess. While I wait for her to get home.

But before all of that I have stuff to do. I need a shower, clean a bit, do some laundry. When Maja gets home we are going shopping for the weekend so I need to think of something to eat too. For the whole weekend haha. Good luck Lilith!