Shit happens

What a bad start this day was. Up when the alarm went off and wake up Leo so he has time for a shower before school. Then back in to the bedroom to wake up J. Curl up close to him and I fall a sleep! I wake up when he gets up to get a shower and thinking that I will only stay one more minute, falls back to sleep and wakes up 7.30 am. Then there was no time to sit at the computer. Since J was in the shower I couldn't get ready then so I rolled a pack of cigarets while I waited. When he was done I got in there and made myself ready and then it was time to go.

After my internship I took the bus to the grocery store, then home to start get everything done. A never ending job. Once you are done it's time to start all over again. But now I'm waiting for the laundry to be done so I can hang it and then I'm done for today. I should vaccum but it has to wait until tomorrow. I'm always the most tired on tuesdays for some reason so when the laundry is done I'm gonna curl up on the couch under the blanket for a while.

Later there isn't much to do. The usual with cooking and doing the dishes. Oh how I long for a dishwasher. I'm so tired of doing the dishes. And it doesn't get any better when you are short and has to stand in some weird position, my back doesn't like that. It's worst when I do the dishes after dinner when there are so many thing, after breakfast it's not that much and goes fast. Not to mention how dry my hands are since I suck at using hand lotion.

Finally time

We went to bed early last night, really early to be us. At 10 pm we were getting ready for bed and when it was 11 pm we were sleeping. I don't think that has ever happen before. I woke up around 3 am and went up for a smoke and then back to bed and slept good until the alarm sounded. Got up and I'm not feeling that tired.

Friday today and the kids are going to their dad for the weekend. It will be so quiet and boring at home. I'm never getting used to it. Lucky for me the weekend goes by so quick and then it's monday again and they are coming home.

I'm finally getting my nails done as well. I have an appointment today at 2 pm so after the internship I'm taking the bus to the store, then home and fix with some papers and then off I go again. I need to be leaving early because I'm not sure where I'm going. I know kind of where it is.

Then it's back home again and do all the stuff that needs to be done hre. Among other things I'm gonna put on clean sheets. I can't wait for tonight when I get to go to bed, there is nothing better then go to bed with clean sheets..

If I'm lucky we'll get the new swedish blog up and running today. Yes, I'm writing we, because Linda is the one who will help me with everything from getting a web host to getting the new design in place. The design is almost ready, just a few small details left like getting the time to show the time as well, and the header doesn't want to show in full when you are reading from your phone. But we will get it up and running even if the header problem isn't worked out. We just need the header to show in full on the computer.

I think I will spend a lot of time here tonight

Birtday party

I first woke up at 6.30 am, when I get up on the weekdays. Went up for a smoke and then back to bed and back to sleep and then I slept untill 11 am.

Oh God what I worked hard yesteryday. 30 minutes was all the time I had to sit down. I cleaned all the counters in the kitchen and the kitchen table, vaccumed and scrubed all the floors, picked up trash everywhere and got one garbage disposal bag and a paper bag, cooked and did the dishes twice. Maja baked and whiped the kitchen after her and soaked everything. She has gotten so big to do all that now.

Today is her birthday party. I need to wrap her gifts which I forgot yesterday, go to the grocery store and do the dishes. And of course make myself ready. Maja was happy when J promised he will be here for her party. It will be the first time he meets my mom, he has already met all the others. For now he is in the shower getting himself ready.

Friday feeling

I was so tired today as well when the alarm started to sound. So when that happend I stayed in bed for a while. To be in bed next to J is the best that is. Nothing is better than that.

Yesterday I cleaned the bathroom so now there isn't much that needs to be done here. I'm gonna vaccum and scrub the floors. That's it. Then we are ready for saturday and Majas birthdayparty.

But before I can do all of that I have a day at my internship that I need to do. I like it so much there and it feels like I'm in the right place. Sure, not everything is super fun, but when is it ever? But if you look at the big picture it's fun and that is what makes it worth it to get up early every morning.

Morning coffee at the internship

Almost done

Today it was hard getting up, God how I'm longing for the weekend and sleeping in. I just want to sleep!

The meeting with my case worker yesteryday went great. With us was my supervisor for the archive and she was more than happy. She thinks that I'm quick to learn and it's easy for me to understand. I think Lilith was sitting there and looking really happy. Next week the boss are gonna be with us, it will be fun to see what she has to ssay.

When I got home I cleaned the tiles over the stove and then the stove. And then I spilled it again when I was cooking. Just like me. So I had to clean it again.

The rest of the afternoon I spent reading, I didn't sleep on the couch. I got stuck in a biography and was sitting there until it was time to start dinner.

Today it's the bathroom that will be getting my attention. I'm not looking forward to it, lucky for me it's easy to clean. Then I'm pretty much done with everything that I need to get done, only the floors left and I will do them on friday.

The good news continues

Yesterday on the breakfast break when we were talking the branch head (I think she is) Pia said that they were thinking of sending me on a training course for the archive and the system. That it looks like I will stay and it's a good investment for them if I learn everything. I was so happy, that must mean that they are happy with me. Those courses aren't cheap and that they want to send me on one is a good sign.

After the internship I went home to clean all the kitchen cabinets doors. Oh my lord how boring it is. But the end result was good. I got a whole new kitchen. God help the one that spills anything on them now. But I cheated and didn´t do the tops of the cabinets that are over the sink, it wasn't anything there. Didn't feel like taking a chair and climb up and down. So I just took the worst.

Today I will go through the curtains I got from my mom so I finally can remove the garbage disposal bags that's in the living room. They have been there for a while so it's about time. And I will get rid of the old shelf for the bathroom that is in a box and taking up space in the living room. I need to do a little every day so I'm finished for saturday.

Then we have the every day stuff like laundry, cleaning and grovery shopping. I need to think of something to eat. Before I leave. But I still have time, I don't leave  until 8.30 am. J is having a coffee. I played nice girlfriend and made coffee while he was in the shower. I just woke up the munchkins and no it's getting time to get ready and do what needs to be done before it's time to leave.

Easter and some arguing

We had such a great time yesterday when we went to  my mom, there is nothing better than her food. My little brother was there, my cousin and his girlfriend and my aunt. And me, the munchkins and Kalle of course. We had a good meal and hung out until it was time for us to leave because Kalle had to go to his mother.

When we got home the munchkins watched a movie and had fridays chips even though it was saturday. We got home so late friday that it was straight to bed for them so the chips had to wait. So they had it last night insted. I placed myself in bed watching tv shows and waiting for J. 

But I didn't expect to have to wait as long as I did. At first he texted me that he was on his way over. He had been with a friend playing pool and had a few beers. Fine, he was on his way. Time goes and no J. I send him a text that I hope that he doesn't walk all the way over, I don't like him walking all by himself that time on a saturday. No answer. I try to call him, he doesn't answer. Then and there is when Lilith start to worry. Finally I get a text that he has gone to the pub with his friend having a few beers.

Eeeeh, excuse me? Now, I'm not that kind of girlfriend that has a problem with him doing stuff with his friends, that's not what it's about. But when he first text me that he is on his way, and then change his mind and goes and does something else without telling me about it so I'm sittting there waiting like a fool, no then Lilith isn't happy.

Finally he shows up. I wasn't angry, just disappointed. I felt kind of unimportant when he didn't even think of texting me telling me that he isn't on his way as he said, but go and does something else. We talked and I said that I know that he has been single for three years and could come and go as he wanted and change his mind the last thing he did, but he can't do that anymore. Now we are two, not just him, and then you show consideration and stick to what you said. He understood and apologised. I'm not resentful so as soon we had talked about it I let it go and the rest of the night was great. But he is sort of hung over today and Lilith can't help but being a little spiteful about it, in a loving way. Maybe I should  hide the painkillers from him.

Today will be a day at home in sweat pants and a hoodie. I didn't have time yesterday to do anything at all at home, didn't even have time to do the dishes. So I have a whole apartment that screams for some love so I guess I´ll get started.

Moms easter food

So angry

God, I'm so mad. When Leo came home yesterday he wanted to talk so we did. He was happy enough with the answers he got on why he have to come home from dad on mondays. But then he says that K has tried to call me and text me to talk about the kids being there every other week. Eeeeh, excuse me. It's the other way around. I don't get an answer when I call and if I text him it can take up to three or for days before he answers it. I texted him yesterday about how it went with Leo at the dentist and still no answer.

Right now it's snowing again. But lucky for me it doesn't stay on the ground. It's a good thing that my internship isn't far away. But in this weather it's farther away than I would have wanted. Let's see if I can find my umbrella. I'm thinking about getting my winter jacket on my way out.

After the internship I'll take the bus to the store to get some dinner. Today we are having salmon and mashed potatoes. They had cheap salmon this week. It's something we love har but doesn't eat that often.

Then a quick walk home and start some laundry. Now the laundry basket is full again even though it feels like I don't do anything else but laundry.

Enter the Maze

This weekend has been so good. It's sad that it's ending while at the same time it will be nice with a new week.

Yesterday we went down town to play pool with Jimmy and his girlfriend. Or, they played pool and I was drinking two Breezer insted. I don't play pool, I think it's boring. But it's fun to watch, it looks a lot more fun than it is. We had a great time and we'll have to do it again soon.

When we were done me and J went to the bus and only had to wait ten minutes. We stopped by the pizza place and bought something to eat in front of the tv while I was watching the hockey game. It didn't go so well. I'm a bit pissed off but it's only one game and far from over.

When we had finished our pizzas and I had a smoke we curled up under the blanket in bed and watched tv shows for the rest of the night. I rather spend a saturday night without the kids home like that with J than doing something else away from home without him. He is my better half that I have been missing a long time before I met him that night in June last year. 

Today I was gonna go home to Sara for a few hours, but I just don't have time. It's to much that needs to be done for when the munchkins get home tomorrow. I usually to everything on monday before they get home but now I got my internship. So there isn't much time lef. And when I'm finished there I have just enough time to do some grocery shopping and then home and do the usual before the munchkins comes home from school. So I have a lot to do today. Wash all their clothes, put on fresh sheets on their beds and stuff like that. And then all the usual things that you do every day.

It can only get better

Fuck what a crappy day I had yesterday.

It started with the hanger in the hallway falling down. I think we had to much on it. So remove all the winter clothes and then put it back up again.

Down town after the internship to drop of some papper. I was gonna buy a huuuuge coffee mug to have at my internship, they only have small ones. Did I find a big one? Of course not. They always have it at In&Finn but not this time. I finally find a half big, pink mug that I buy. I was also gonna bye socks for Leo only to discover that I left my Mastercard at home in the other jacket.

I get home and is gonna go get the box for the winter clothes from the basement. I always put it so it's easy to get since I take it up twice a year but not we had a moving company first empty the storage and then put everything back. So the box has of course ended up way back against the wall, under a lot of other boxes. It takes me 15 minutes just to get to it.

When I finally get back up to the apartment what do I see? A big coffee mug of course, I already had one and didn't have to buy one. There and then I gave up and curled up on the couch for the rest of the afternoon.

Today will hopefully get better. After my internship I'm taking the bus to the store to buy me a salad. I have been in the mood for a chicken salad so I will have that today. Then home to change the sheets on the bed, it is friday.

Later we are going to a movie. We are gonna see Triple 9 with Norman Reedus from The Walking Dead. It will be nice to get out of the house for a while. The munchkins are going to their dad for the wekend and comes home on monday so we have plenty of time to do stuff.

Now it's time to get ready for the internship. Oh, how I can't wait until I get to sleep in.