Finally time

We went to bed early last night, really early to be us. At 10 pm we were getting ready for bed and when it was 11 pm we were sleeping. I don't think that has ever happen before. I woke up around 3 am and went up for a smoke and then back to bed and slept good until the alarm sounded. Got up and I'm not feeling that tired.

Friday today and the kids are going to their dad for the weekend. It will be so quiet and boring at home. I'm never getting used to it. Lucky for me the weekend goes by so quick and then it's monday again and they are coming home.

I'm finally getting my nails done as well. I have an appointment today at 2 pm so after the internship I'm taking the bus to the store, then home and fix with some papers and then off I go again. I need to be leaving early because I'm not sure where I'm going. I know kind of where it is.

Then it's back home again and do all the stuff that needs to be done hre. Among other things I'm gonna put on clean sheets. I can't wait for tonight when I get to go to bed, there is nothing better then go to bed with clean sheets..

If I'm lucky we'll get the new swedish blog up and running today. Yes, I'm writing we, because Linda is the one who will help me with everything from getting a web host to getting the new design in place. The design is almost ready, just a few small details left like getting the time to show the time as well, and the header doesn't want to show in full when you are reading from your phone. But we will get it up and running even if the header problem isn't worked out. We just need the header to show in full on the computer.

I think I will spend a lot of time here tonight

Happy birthday!

The boss was double booked yesteryday so she couldn't be at the meeting with my case worker. Insted one of the teamleaders was with us and he only had good things to say. And when my case worker told him that in the fall it's time to talk about employment he thought it sounded good. I was so happy!

After I was done I took the bus to the store and got what I needed and then home and do what needed to be done there. I did two loads of laundry and fixed the balcony after they painted it before I crashed on the couch and went to sleep for an hour. Maja was at her practice and Leo was with a friend so it was so quiet at home. I wasn't even thinking about going to sleep, I was just gonna lay down and watch some tv. But then I fell a sleep.

Today it's first the internship and then the store. I need to think about something to eat. At home it's not that much to do but I think I'll do som laundry. As always.

Maja has  basketball practice today as well so it will only be me and Leo at home. We'll see if J will be eating here today, he did yesterday. It depends on when he's coming.

And today my little girl has her birthday. 12 years old! How could that happen? It was only yesterday she was a little girl that wanted to sleep in my bed every night and now she only has one year left until she is a teenager.

To sleep alone

That whole thing with getting Js xbox to find the computer wasn't as easy as it sounded. But when Kalle finally got it to work it still didn't go as I wanted because the xbox doesn't play all files. And not .avi that is most of my tv shows. So we gave up and continues to use the mediacenter and we'll just change the contacs when J is gonna play on his xbox.

J left for a late night movie yesterday. He took my keyes with him so that he would get in even if I fell a slepp. I didn't think I was gonna be able to sleep without him but I took my meds, brushed my teeth and put on my pyjamas. Then I started Buffy on the tv in the bedroom and fell a sleep almost at once. Then I slept so good until he came home and woke me up like I asked him to. He got ready to go to bed and then when he was finished we layed there talking for a short while before I went back to sleep and slept so good until the alarm sounded this morning.

I feel so much better today, just a bit cold and a cough that won't go away. But it's not that every joint still hurts or something like that. It's nice that I almost never get sick, just a little bit for a day or so before I get better. So today I'm going to my internship.

After that I will go to the store and get something for dinner, I just have to think about what we are gonna eat. I can't think of a single thing. But I guess I'll think of something. Then after that it's home to do some cleaning and then I think I will curl up under the blanket on the couch. Even though I feel better I can still feel that there is something that shouldn't be there. I tried to sleep for a while yesterday but everytime I was about to go to sleep they started drilling in the basement. So I gave up around the time J texted me that he was on his way over, and after that Kalle came.

Gametime and chocolate

As always these days I wake up just before the alarm. I must have an built in clock that's for sure.

Why do you have an alarm for a sunday? Because it's time for basketball. We are all gonna meet up at 11 pm and then we go to Örebro for the game. So it was getting up at 9 pm and I woke up 15 minutes before the alarm. Leo should have been at a friends house for the day but her mom got sick so he's coming with us.

And I got the best boyfriend in the world. Do you know what he did? Since I have pms he got me three gigantic chocolate bars. How sweet is that? And I mean gigantic. God how I love him!

The internship is coming closer

Yesterday my case worker called. The place that is looking for an intern was positive and want a meeting. So it seems like we are going there next tuesday. You'll have to cross your fingers for me!

Today I'm thinking about going back to bed after the kids have left for school. So much so that I haven't made any cooffee because then I can't go back to sleep no matter how tired I am. I think I'll have my coffee after I have been to the grocery store. Don't know what we are having for dinner yet, only that it will be something with chicken because I got that in the freezer.

After my trip to the grocery store I have to do some laundry, I don't think I do anything else and still the laundry basket is always full. 

Later today there will be a blog post about how I met J. I don't write that much about him but now he'll have a whole blogpost to himself. But it got kind of long, it's eight months I'm writing about.

Now I'm gonna get the kids ready for school. Maja is getting dressed but Leo is still at the breakfast table so I need to make sure he speeds it up a little.

It's finally time!

Oh God what a night I had. At first I had a dream that J was cheating on me. I woke up around 5 am and had a smoke. Then when I finally got back to sleep I had a dream that he broke up with me insted. No one was happier than me when the alarm finally sounded and I got away from all those dreams. 

Today is friday and my friday feeling is gone. The munchkins are going to their dad for the weekend and it will be so empty at home. But at 1 pm I have an appointment to get my nails done and after that I'm heading over to my friend Sara. The computer is coming with me, she thinks that I don't blog enough. But it's hard writing a blog post besides the ones I write every morning when nothing ever happens to write about. Since I have a desktop it's kind of hard to take that with me so I'm gonna borrow Leos laptop. It's my old one he got when I fixed this one. But I won't tell him, what he doesn't know can't hurt him haha.

It's really about time I'm getting my nails done, finally time. Mine has gotten so long and ugly, I don't do them as often as I should. But it always feels like there is better things to spend that money on. But no, I wouldn't survive without my nails.

Then after I'm finished at Sara it's back home to put om some clean sheets, if I don't have time to do that before I leave. I need to take a shower and shave my legs as well before it's time to go. I need to do the laundry when I get home. The sheets after I made the beds I always try to take care of the same day because they take up so much space in the laundry basket.

Some bad news

Oh god  how good I was yesterday that got all the calls done. So now the washer is balanced. Then I texted my case worker if she could call me but someone else did because she is on sick leave until April. It whould have been good to get some info about that. But I toltd the man who called that I needed another tag for the front door and a smaller washer so we'll see if that happens.

At the breakfast group we got some bad news; it's moving to mondays. That means that even the weekends that the kids are with their dad I have to get up semi early on mondays if I'm gonna make it to the breakfast group. We have got a new instructor because one of our old ones quit and she can only make it on mondays. Bleh!

Now it´s full speed going on here at home when the kids are getting ready for school. After they have left I'm gonna go back to bed and to J and sleep for another hour. J is home because he has a headache and stomachache but are going to school tomorrow.

Later this afternoon I'm going to do laundry now that the washer is balanced, I'm out of socks. Then I need to think of something to eat and go to the store. Oh God how I hate to think of something to eat every day. But if I can't think of food for one day how am I gonna do a meal plan for the whole week? No, that's imposible so I'll keep coming up meals day by day.

Just a few days left

God I'm tired and we went to bed at a reasonable time last night. Before it was 11 pm.

I didn´t get to many minutes in bed yesterday after the munchkins and J hade left before the doorbell rang. Just my luck! De come to fix something with the radiators so I had to get out of bed. Insted I made some coffee I had in front of the computer. 

Today I´m going shopping with J and a friend after J is done at school. We are meeting up down town. I need to buy a new pen (I only buy one kind), something for the spices because right now they are just standing on the bench next to the stove and then I need to buy a new frame for my picture of Chester Bennington. It broke during the start of the renovation, one of the handymen broke it. But it´s my own fault, we were suposed to empty the walls but I forgot to take it down. Then I think we would end the whole shopping thing with a coffee. 

Then it´s time to get home and unpack everything, have a shower and shave my legs. They are coming to clean the bathroom today so after that I can have a long shower and enjoy my own shower. Now it's just the bath tub and the washing machine and then everything is done. Then I can finally get the cats home!

This arguing thing

Last night we had a discussion again, so unnecessary. Why does that always have to happen when you don't agree on something? I talked it out with J later and now I hope we are done with all this shit that happens over little things. That he might understand me better.

Now they are working in the toilet. Yesterday when I was at home they came with all the stuff that is gonna be put in like toilets and sink, I so hope that we get to use the toilets before the inspection så I don't have to wait until next week. I'm so sick and tired of going out every time. Like today when I woke up at 5.42 am and had to go to the next yard. 

Today will be a nice and quiet day, I have nothing planed besides grocery shopping and making dinner. We´ll see what we will have. I have to check my recipes.

I still feel a bit down after last night so I think I will try to get some sleep so this day will pass. It depends on how much noice they make when they are putting everything up.

Hopefully the last week,and some argument

How we spent Valentines day yesterday J and I? With an argument, not that much fun. But we worked it out finally and he got the teddy bear I got for him. He was super happy, for that little thing. But I forgot to get Valentines day cookies for the munchkins but they seems to have forgotten about it too because they didn´t say anything. And believe me, if there is cookies involved they say something.

Since it got so late yesterday I think I'm going back to bed when the munchkins have left for school. But they will take a while because Maja doesn't start until later so she is sleeping in. J starts later as well so he is also still sleeping. It´s just me and Leo awake.

Now it´s the last week of the renovation, I hope. They are gonna come with all the interior this week and then they are suposed to be finished. I really hope they will be because I´m getting sick and tired to go out to the barrack everytime I have to use the bathroom or take a shower.

No Valentines cookies

Finally friday

Everything went great at Leos parent teacher meeting. He will be practicing his handwriting and division. Besides that he is ahead of where he should be. He has also stoped sitting under his desk that he did sometimes to be alone. 

After the meeting I went home to Linda for a coffee, it was to long ago. She was nice enough to have bought me some presents. A citchen clock with a timer and a shredder. We had coffee, smoked to much and had a really great time. It was good to hear her laugh.

I got home just in the for when the munchkins came home. Then I'm not sure what I did. Oh, I talked to my cousin on the phone! Maja had her practice so she ate before us so it was only Leo and I at dinner.

Later Kalle came over and we watched Mob wives together as always. When he left me and J went to bed and watched Hells kitchen and Baby daddy. Even an episode of the swedish show Andra avenyn. Not really my favorite show. But if J can stand watching my shows I have to watch his.

Today is gonna be a nice and quiet day. I' gonna go back to bed after everyone leaves at 8 am. It will be nice to get some more sleep.

When Leo comes home from school we are gonna go down to the showers, he needs a shower. Oh god how I miss my bathroom and want it back. Then when Maja comes home we are going grocery shopping for the weekend. Then home and do nothing until it's time to make dinner. For once I know what we are gonna eat; chicken. I have promised the munchkins that.

Shower and the laundry room

God how nice it was to get some sleep. But I have been waking up on and off so it haven´t been that much sleep anyway. So I'm still a bit tired.

Today I'm gonna do laundry. 6-10 pm. Oh how much fun! Not. I miss my washer. J went swiming with a friend so we'll see when he comes back. I have som stuff to do around here as well while waiting for the laundry. But I guess I'll have time to curl up on the couch under the blanket.

I texted a friend yesterday about having a coffee today but she hasn't texted me back yet so I don't think that will happen. To bad, we haven's seen each other for a wile. I guess I'll stay at home in my sweat pants insted.

No I'm gonna go get ready to go down to the showers. They are really small so you'll have to be an acrobat to shave you legs. It's always an adventure.

It will feel empty

Today me and J was woken up by my mom who called. But it was 10:30 pm so it was just as good. We stayed in bed and cuddled for a while before we got up.

Today Lilith is going on an adventure. Dad had told all of us siblings to meet him at the back of his house at 2 pm and we are not allowed to have eaten before that. Exiting! That we are going somewhere to eat is easy to figure out but where is a different thing. Kalle is nice enough to watch the kids for me, and drive me to dad.

It will feel strange to sleep alone without J tonight. We have done that fore a week and you get used to it so quick. So now when it's just me in bed it will feel empty.

He's sick again

Leo woke me up at 7 am, he threw up. Again. Wastn't long ago he was sick. So now I'm gonna miss Majas basketball tomorrow. Damn!

Then when I was right about to fall asleep again I woke me up, right before 8. Texted him back and then went back to sleep to 10 am. That felt good.

I don't need to go grocery shopping today woho. Got all I needed for the weekend yesterday, food for the whole weekend. Wasn't easy coming up with dinner for three days but I did it. This blog has turned out to be all about food and dinner.

I'm gonna take it easy today. Put on swet pants and a big hoodie and lay on the couch reading a book. Don't have much cleaning to do so it will go fast. But thinking of cleaning the bathroom. Or play some board games. We'll see. I'm gonna finish my coffee first.

How I love it!

Oh how I slept, I love my sleep. 9 and ½ hour to be exact. I was so tired from monday. So when the dishwasher was ready at 9 pm I went to bed and slept until 6.30 am.

I need to go on a powerwalk, go grocery shopping and do some laundry. The same as always. I have some tv shows I need to watch. Maybe I'll find the time this afternoon.

And food, always dinner. I hate coming up with dinner. Today we'll have something with chicken. I asked the kids but they couldn't think of anything. Maybe we'll have chicken nachos. The kids loves it.

It's finally time!

I had so much trouble sleeping last night. Couldn't fall a sleep and when I did I had weird dreams and then woke up. I think I woke up 5 times during the night. So I'm nog a happy girl today.

Me and my cousin are going to get our nails done today. Yey! Mine look like crap now so it was about time. That's the only girlie girl thing I do, my nails. While she gets hers done I'm gonna look after her youngest, she is such a little prinsess.

After that I have a home that want's my attention, as usual. Cleaning when you have kids and cats is like shoveling snow while it's still snowing. Need to think of something to eat, as usual. And I need to do laundry, as usual.

I didn't get a letter yesterday, I always gets them on mondays for some reason. It have has to do with sorting of air mail. It has been 5 weeks now since his last letter and I'm starting to worry. Maybe his trial didn't go well and he feels to depressed to put pen to papper. I'm gonna mail him a letter today or tomorrow.

Not enough sleep

Can't remember the last time I slept this bad. I woke up every hour the whole night. And when I got a text from my cousin around 8 am I gave up on sleep and got up and made some coffee.

Kalle came over yesterday to help me dye my hair so now it's black again. And he brought cookies! That was the best thing haha. Lilith loves cookies!

Today it's the usual. Clean, do laundry, read. I haven't read much this last few days. Could be because I'm always on the phone with my cousin. We talk 6-8 hours everyday. Yes, that is possible. And always the same thing, the same jokes and so on. And even tho we have heard it a 1000 times we still laugh. Yeah, we suck haha. But we do have fun together.

Time for breakfast

Not that happy

It feels so good to be able to sleep again. Went to bed around 10 pm last night and went to sleep. Got up when the alarm went off at 6 am. No more sleepless nights and waking up at 5 am.

I'm thinking of having Maja home from school today. She has a really nasty cold. And Rasmus texted me wanting me to call his school about him being sick too.

Today I was suposed to come and stay the night, but his band are playing the whole weekend so that's not gonna happen. So I'm a bit... unhappy today. But he'll come next week. Don't know when yet. It sucks with him living 100 km away.

When Leo gets home from school we are gonna go grocery shopping for the weekend. That means I have to come up with food for the whole weekend. Haha won't happen! I will have to go again tomorrow.

The perfect dinner

I finally got it!

I finally got some sleep!! Didn't wake up at 5 am, got up at 6 am when the alarm went off. And started the day with a text message that made me happy.

Today I'm gonna babysit my cousins youngest while she is getting her hair cut. It's about time, she needs to do stuff like that and spend some time on herself. She was gonna come get me but I'll think I'll walk. Since I don't have time for a powerwalk today.

Then it's the usual. Get some dinner, do some cleaning and laundry. Groundhog day all over. Thank god for my cousin who makes it a bit easier, since we talk like 6-8 hours on the phone every day. Yup, it's posible.

What to do when you are bored

And when will I find the time to breathe?

I had set the alarm for 6 am, since Maja has a basketball cup today. Woke up att 5.30 am. Third day in a row that I wake up that early. It's driving me crazy!

Today is busy as hell. First as I said is Majas cup. After that straight to my dad and celebrate his birthday and then home to make dinner. And wax my legs, a must do today so they are ready for tomorrow.

It will be a small celebration with my dad. Just me and my siblings. And Kalle of course who is nice enough to drive us all day. I just need to figure out when Maja is going to have lunch between her games and the birthday celebration.