Hard decisions

It was hard getting up this morning. So hard that I went back to sleep as soon as I turned off the alarm. I have been so tired the whole week but don't know why. I need the weekend.

We had a meeting with my boss yesterday and it went great, and not so great. The good thing is that they want to hire me when my mentor retires in the end of September. The bad thing is that it's not full time, only 60% and I won't be able to live on that kind of money. I have to talk to my case worker about that next wednesday. And May 25th we are having another meeting with my boss so I guess we'll talk about it with her as well. I hope we can figure something out so I get to be there full time because I like that place a lot. But I have to be able to pay my bills too.

I went to a parent-teacher conference with Maja yesterday and as always it was all good. She is between 85% - 100% in all classes but gym class. There they are still going by how well they could swim in third grade and she had a hard time with learning how to swim. I think they should be going by what she has done this semester but I guess not.

Today I got a lot to do at home, I was to tired to do it yesterday because I got home late from the parent-teacher conference. I can't wait for tonight when the kids have gone to bed so I can curl up in bed with J and watch some tv shows, be close and just let go of everything I'm thinking about with money and all that.

Shit happens

What a bad start this day was. Up when the alarm went off and wake up Leo so he has time for a shower before school. Then back in to the bedroom to wake up J. Curl up close to him and I fall a sleep! I wake up when he gets up to get a shower and thinking that I will only stay one more minute, falls back to sleep and wakes up 7.30 am. Then there was no time to sit at the computer. Since J was in the shower I couldn't get ready then so I rolled a pack of cigarets while I waited. When he was done I got in there and made myself ready and then it was time to go.

After my internship I took the bus to the grocery store, then home to start get everything done. A never ending job. Once you are done it's time to start all over again. But now I'm waiting for the laundry to be done so I can hang it and then I'm done for today. I should vaccum but it has to wait until tomorrow. I'm always the most tired on tuesdays for some reason so when the laundry is done I'm gonna curl up on the couch under the blanket for a while.

Later there isn't much to do. The usual with cooking and doing the dishes. Oh how I long for a dishwasher. I'm so tired of doing the dishes. And it doesn't get any better when you are short and has to stand in some weird position, my back doesn't like that. It's worst when I do the dishes after dinner when there are so many thing, after breakfast it's not that much and goes fast. Not to mention how dry my hands are since I suck at using hand lotion.

A day without basketball

It went really well for Maja yesterday, their team only lost one game and won the other two so that means that they got a spot in the playoffs. But in the afternoon Leo started feeling ill so Maja had to go to the last game without us, her coach was nice enough to come get her and Kalle took her home. Leo felt so bad that he went to bed at 8 pm without protest. He got some cough medicine so he could sleep.

This morning it was time to get up at 6.30 am and we got up without any trouble. Since Leo was feeling ill it was only Maja who left with Kalle, the rest of us stayed at home. So when I got her up and made sure she was getting ready I got back in to bed again and went back to sleep. I woke up when J put his arm around me, the best way to wake up.

Today I will do everything I didn't have time to do this weekend because of all the games. Like doing laundry and going to the grocery store. We have lived of left overs since there haven't been any time to go to the store or cook. But now it will be nice with a normal day. These weekends wear you out. Lucky it's only once a year.

When you can't oversleep

Ouch what a start this day got. My alarm didn't sound, the alarm clock was dead, so I woke up when Kalle called and was outside and it was time to go. So up, wake up the munchkins, grab some clothes and a bag of apples. But we made it in time and lucky for the kids Kalle had a lot with him to eat and he shared that with the kids.

The game yesterday went great, the won big time. The game this morning didn't go that good. The whole team was out of focus and as a result the lost big time. Then it was a few hours left until the next game at 12.30 pm so we went home. I have some stuff to do before we leave. Like doing the dishes that I didn't have time to do yesterday. Depending on how the next game goes we will know if they will play another game, if they make it to the playoffs. I'm kind of a terrible mom, and hate this weekend, so I'm almost hoping that they wont make it. And if they do it won't be where they play now, that is close to where we live. If they do we will have to take the bs down town, and I like to avoid that because they aren't that many buses on the weekends.

A nice surprice for the kids yesterday at the opening ceremony was that their grandfather came. I knew that he had been thinking about it, but we didn't decide on anything so I didn't tell the kids. But when we stood and watched the performances I looked around and there he was. But we didn't stay for the whole ceremony, sleep was more importand, and specially for Maja so she would be fit for fight today. So when we came home around 9 pm it was straight to bed for the munchkins. Me and J went to bed to watch Greys Anatomy before we went to sleep, but I was so tired that I ended up falling a sleep on his shoulder at the end of the episode.

It's finally up!

Oh God how nice it was to get a good, long sleep. J woke me up and we cuddled for a while. Then I managed to get back to sleep when he went in the shower and woke up again when he was done.

Yesterday I got everything done after my internship plus I had time to change the sheets so I didn't have to do that when I got home. Lucky for me I did because the nails took 2½ hours to et done. But they turned out great so it was worth it. I'm gonna keep using that design for a while. But I got so tired sitting there getting spoiled.

When I got home I waitied for Linda to get ready and then we started to switch blogs. It took a bit longer than I expected because first I had to call Binero to remove so the adress didn't point to blogger where the old blog is, then I had to call them again to start up everything. Then the page wouldn't load so I had to call them again and they told me that it could take up to three hours. Wheee! It didn't take that long, but long enough. Then I could finally start. Get the design up and running, fix all the plugins and all that behind the scene stuff that people can't see but makes it easier for me. All and all it took about an hour. I'm not all done, among other things the pages is gonna get ready for phones because most of my readers reads from their phone and now it looks bad when you do. 

Besides that I don't have much to do today. I'm gonna do laundry, the sheets I changed yesterday and the carpet for the bathroom. It attracts all the fuzz so you have to wash it all the time. J just left but will come back later. Then we will cuddle in bed with our tv shows. Until then I will find something to do but I don't think I will change from my pyjamas today. Maybe to put on my sweatpants and Js hoodie.

A great night

God what a fun night we had last night, I laughed until my stomach hurt. It was me, J, Kalle, my little brother and our cousin. And as always when me, my little brother and our cousin is in the same place there is lots of laughter. Me and J left around 1 am. By then Kalle and my cousin had already left.

This morning I woke up at 10 am and went up for a smoke. But then I went back to bed and managed to get back to sleep, I was so tired I was seeing double. Then I woke up around lunch and I woke J up as well, I thought he had slept enough then haha.

Today we will just do nothing, I think we will spend the day in bed with tv shows and cuddles. I got all I needed for the weekend on friday so I don't have to go to the grocery store. But I think that J would go there later. Myself, I have planed to be in my pyjamas all day. And do as little as possible.

Moving the Swedish blog and party party

I first woke up at 10 am, but since it's the weekend and I don't have any kids at home I refused to get up. I managed to get back to sleep and when I wake up the next time J was ready to leave. No morning cuddle, no nothing. Yes, Lilith got a bit pissed, he could have woken me up for that. But he promised to come back early, so we'll see.

Moving the blog is still happening. It's been working on it. I got a tip from Jeanette to check out Etsy for a design and I hadn't even thought about that. I found a design a fell for. The problem is, that everyone knows, that there are always things you want to change on a design, no matter how much you like it, and I don't know anything about writing code in Wordpress. I used to be able to, a bit, but that was many years ago and I have lost it all. But Linda can, and she was nice enough to work her ass of last night with changing it to how I want it to be. It's almost finished, but there are still a few things left. And when the design is finished there are still stuff to be done before I can move my blog. But I'm gonna use the same adress.

Tonight we are going out. I still don't know who we are, if there will be more than just me and J. We haven't been out since November so it will be fun. Something nice to eat and drink and listen to some good music. Maybe Kalle is coming but he didn't know yet. Then I think J talked to some friends but they didn't know. Oh well, it will be fun anyway.

Morning panic

Oh god I woke up in a panic mode this morning. I overslept and woke up at 8 am and am suposed to leave for my internship at 8.30 am. Leo was still sleeping so I woke him up, made sure he had his breakfast and got himself ready and then I had to make myself ready. Didn't even have time to put on any make up.

I need to switch chairs at my internship because when we are putting away files my back hurts. Everyone has ergonomic chairs but me. So when the boss gets back on April 4th my supervisor will talk to her about getting me one as well. My back hurts all day long now. And I already have problems with my back and don't want any more problems.

When I got home J was in bed playing on his xbox and he still is. I had to do everything I usually do before I leave in the morning, plus everything I do when I get home. But now I'm finally done, just waiting for the laundry.

Shit!

Well, this day didn't start good. I overslept and woke up at 7 am insted of 6.30 am. I don't know why the alarm didn't work. But I'm feeling a bit stressed right now. I'm leaving at 8.30 and have stuff to do. I don't think I will have time to clean before I go so I will just get ready and put on my make up.

Today my case worker are coming to visit to see how it's going. He will come once a week the first few weeks. I think that it's a bit to much but that is what the boss wanted so that's how it will be.

After my internship I'll take the bus to the store and get some dinner. I'm so in the mood for some chocolate so it's posible that some will come home with me. I still don't know what we are having but I have to think of something fast.

Even though I did laundry yesterday all the baskets are full so I will deal with that when I get home. It feels like I don't do anything else. How can there be so much laundry when I do it every day? I still haven't heard anything about a new machine. It was a few weeks since I called about it so you think that they will call me back soon.

Since I overslept there isn't any time for coffee now so that will have to wait until I get to my internship. Which means that I will get there with a headache. Lucky for me the coffee is the first thing that gets done when I get there.

A really boring thursday

When the alarm sounded I turned it off and was just gonna close my eyes for two more minutes. But that never happens so it was a little bit longer than that. But the kids got to school in time and that's the main thing. Oh God how I long for the weekend when I get go sleep, no alarm to wake you up.

It's boring and grey outside and I'm thinking about having a cleaning day today. I need to scrub the bathroom. But that's so boring but a bit more fun now that everything is new. And now that all the walls are covered with tile it's so much more easy to keep it clean. Just wipe it insted of standing there with all the cleaning products trying to get the walls clean.

J is still sleeping and I think he will do that for a couple of more hours so I have to be a bit quiet and that means that the vacuuming have to wait. Don't know what I will do until he wakes up. I don't wanna go back to bed again because I don't feel so sleepy, we went to sleep at a reasonable time last night. Sure, I guess I could sleep but then I would wake up really tired which I usually do if I go to sleep when I'm feeling like this.  I'm always moer tired after I have slept than before.

Tonight it's Mob Wives as always on thursdays. My life will not be complete when it's over, this is the last season. Kalle is coming over to watch it with me as he always do, it's our thing. J was gonna sleep at his place tonight but decided to spend the night here anyway. Lilith likes. I really do hate sleeping alone. 

I could amuse myself by getting ready ad go to the grocery store. Just need to check my recipes for something to eat. But I think I'll start with a coffee.

Best night ever

The meeting yesterday went great. He had some ideas of places to call so he was gonna start today. So now we are hoping that somethings happening soon. 

When I left I got a text from J asking how it went, and then he said he had something to tell me but it had to wait until he came here. What the fuck could that be? When he came here he gave me a big hug and wishpered in my ear "I love you". Can you imagine how long I have waited to hear that? He made me the happiest ever!

Today I managed to miss the alarm. I woke up at 7.50 in panic. Lucky for me I have big kids that still does what they are gonna do so they were ready for school. Now it's only me that is stressed because I need to take a shower before the breakfast group today.

Later today I need to think of something to eat and then go to the grocery store. I need to call about the washer not being balanced so that everything that stands on it falls down when I do the laundry plus that it hits the sink and I don't want it to break.

Visits all day long

I woke up just before 5 am, went out for a smoke and then back to sleep again until just before 10 am. Went out for a smoke but then went back to bed to cuddle with J and didn't want to wake up. So I went back to sleep for a little while until I got a text.

It was my cousin who wanted to do something and asked if we wanted company later. Of course! It's always nice to see her, we don't see eachother that much. So wake J up so he has time for a shower, he isn't human before his shower. And I sat down to write something and has gotten such a nice and sweet comment on my swedish blog. That makes me happy.

Later on Kalle will come over to pick up the boxes I borrowed for the renovation. He has been here a few times this week to pick them up but we always forgets it. 

Besides that it's the usual. Laundry, grocery shopping, making the beds and stuff like that. Think of something to eat would be good too.

Tonight I'm getting in bed watching tv shows. J is watching the swedish Song contest so he will be here late. So it will just be me. The originals is a must see. I'm waiting the whole week for a new episode to come online. One of my favorite shows that's fore sure.

Another day of shopping

Ooooh how nice it was to get some sleep. But at first I woke ut before 10 am but refused to get up. Managed to get back to sleep after a while but I couldn't get any more deep sleep so I stayed in bed for about an hour before I got up. J is still in bed.

Yesterday was a good shopping day. I got everything I needed but something to put the spices on. I was gonna buy something so we don't slip in the bath tub but I had forgotten to write that on the list so no wonder I forgot to buy it. The we finished it all with a coffee at Espresso House before I went to the bus and got home.

At home I took a loooong shower. After five weeks I finally get to have a shower without having to leave the apartment, it was heaven. Then I put on some sweats and placed myself on the couch in front of the tv and waited for J to come which he did a little bit after 7 pm. Then we cuddled and watched some tv shows before we went to sleep. I guess it was around 1.30 am before we turned of the lights.

Today it will be some more shopping. My little brother is nice enough to drive me to ÖoB to do some shopping. I have a long list but it's just little things. Just a few big ones like something to hang the laundry where the bed sheets will fit, a wagon for the bathroom to put my stuff now that I can't put up any shelves there and a new litter box for when the cats comes home. We leave in about an hour so I'm gonna finish this blog while J is having a shower and then it's my turn to get ready.

When I get home I'm just gonna dump everything and then I'm going home to Sara. She had her birthday this week so I'm going over there to celebrate her a bit. I need to look up when the bus leaves as well. I thought I'll take the bus to the store and do some more shopping. I need something for dinner. That can be good to have.

Later tonight J is coming over. He is just gonna watch the Swedish song contest and then he will sleep here. While he is watching that I'm gonna watch my tv shows that has aired during the night.

A good night with some negative stuff

What a good night we had last night, me and J, even though everything wasn't great. Got some texts from Maja who didn't have a good time with her dad. It was chaos and disturbing noise, as always. She wanted to come home but was afraid to tell her dad. He wouldn't understand and would make her feel guilty if there is something wrong. So she decided to stay there. Kalle was on stand by if she needed to get picked up. 

We went to the movies last night and saw Daddy's home, a comedy. With one of my favorites; Mark Wahlberg. Oh my God, he looked great. We was in the little theatre and after this I won't go anywhere else. There were big, nice armchairs and lots of room for the legs. Not those little chairs where you can hardly fit and can't stretch out your legs.

When we got home we watched some tv shows and it was past 2 am when we finally went to bed. But what does that matter when the kids aren't home and we could sleep in? But I woke up at 8.45 am the first time but managed to get back to sleep. The next time I woke up when J opened the bedroom door so I guess the body was ready to wake up any time after that.

Today Kalle is coming over to switch to my old router. The new one won't work here and I'm connected to direct to my internet provider so the fact that my old router can't handle when everyone is connected and on our phones and comuters doesn't matter that much.

Besides that I will have a soft day, I'm gonna be in sweat pants all day. But I need to go to the store, I forgot to get daddys present yesterday. We are going there tomorrow to celebrate him, his birthday is on monday.

What a sleep in

My god, we slept for so long today. Until 12:20 pm. But we stayed up late.

They came and fixed the blockage in the sewages yesterday at least. So now we have toilets that works.

I have been grocery shopping and fixed the apartment so now everything is as it should be. The only question now is what I'm gonna do the rest of the day. I'm thinking of watching a few tv shows, but I'm not sure. I would like to keep an eye on the munchkins as well and I can't if I'm gonna be in the bedroom.

The last day of school

It's the last day of school! But Leo still has a few weeks left at the community youth center. But he won't be there as early as school starts. But tomorrow we are taking the day off and is sleeping in.

I had trouble sleeping last night so I was in bed talking on the phone until 12.30 am before I could go to sleep. So I wasn't happy when the alarm went off at 6.30 am. Maybe I'll do like yesterday and take a nap on the couch. But before I do that I need to get some laundry done.

Good girl

I overslept. I thought I woke up at 7 am but I woke up at 8 am. Good girl.

Yesterday I finally got a letter! He got moved so that's why I got my letters back. But now I have the right adress. I was so happy to finally hear from him.

I went and got a appointment for my next tattoo yesterday. July 1! I can't wait! And of course it's from a song by Linkin Park. What else?

Today it's the breakfast group. After that I'm getting my nails done. And then I need to buy Leo some new hoodies. I hope I get home before he does.

Given up

I'm so tired today so I stayed in bed until 7.45 am. And I usually get up at 6.30 am.

Today I'm meeting up with my case worker at 10 am to talk about my internship. What places she can call and so on. After that I will have to find something to do until 12.30 pm when the tattoo place opens. I'm gonna go and see how much my next tattoo will cost, and maybe book an appointment. As usual it will be something that has to do with music. Something from the song Given Up by Linkin Park.

Then it's home to do some cleaning as usual. And wait for Maja to come home from school so we can go to the store and do some grocery shopping for the weekend. I have no idea what to eat. I hope she does.

Blue screen

Wow, I slept until 11 am, that felt good.

Yesterday at my brother was fun. As always with him. My mother talked about taking Maja for a weekend. That would be great. I love spending time with my kids but sometimes it's nice to do something else.

Today Kalle is coming over to try to figure out why Maja gets a blue screen on her computer from time to time. She is not happy about it. And I understand her. I would go crazy.

Me, I'm gonna clean and do laudry. The dishwasher is already running. Maja filled it up for me.

Some shopping

I went back to bed after the kids went to school. I was so tired. Couldn't sleep last night so it was over 1 am before I could sleep.

Today I'm going shopping for Majas birthday tomorrow. My "little" girl is going to be 11. How did that happen? She is getting so big.

But before that I need a shower and to get ready for the day. I won't have time to do anything at home before I leave or when I get home. Nice with a day to do nothing at home.

She is getting so big!