Hard decisions

It was hard getting up this morning. So hard that I went back to sleep as soon as I turned off the alarm. I have been so tired the whole week but don't know why. I need the weekend.

We had a meeting with my boss yesterday and it went great, and not so great. The good thing is that they want to hire me when my mentor retires in the end of September. The bad thing is that it's not full time, only 60% and I won't be able to live on that kind of money. I have to talk to my case worker about that next wednesday. And May 25th we are having another meeting with my boss so I guess we'll talk about it with her as well. I hope we can figure something out so I get to be there full time because I like that place a lot. But I have to be able to pay my bills too.

I went to a parent-teacher conference with Maja yesterday and as always it was all good. She is between 85% - 100% in all classes but gym class. There they are still going by how well they could swim in third grade and she had a hard time with learning how to swim. I think they should be going by what she has done this semester but I guess not.

Today I got a lot to do at home, I was to tired to do it yesterday because I got home late from the parent-teacher conference. I can't wait for tonight when the kids have gone to bed so I can curl up in bed with J and watch some tv shows, be close and just let go of everything I'm thinking about with money and all that.

Soo tired

Today it was really hard getting up, it took 45 minutes. It was so much more nice to stay in bed with J so I rather did that. But eventually it was time to get up.

Today it's the usual here at home. First my internship, and I would rather be in bed even though I like it there. Then the bus to the internship, get something for dinner and then home and take care of things. If I'm lucky I will have time to curl up on the couch, I'm guessing I will be really tired this afternoon. But I only have myself to blame when we went to bed kind of late.

At first we watched two episodes of Sons of Anarchy, then we talked for a long time and then it was late. So when we went to bed it was after midnight and then the alarm sounded at 6:30 am. No, then you are tired. I can't wait for tonight when it's time to get in to bed.

A thursday that is like a friday

What a day I had yesterday. Everything that could go wrong went wrong. It all started when I overslept, which resulted in not having the time to do everything at home before I left. I also dropped the ashtray so everything fell out in the whole kitchen. It was just for me to take out the vacuum cleaner.

I get to my internshit and is making coffee and when it's ready I spill boiling hot coffee on my foot when I'm changing the filter in the machine. While I'm changing the filter the coffee keeps on poring even though there is no coffee pot there, coffee everywhere. It was just for me to whipe it up.

The meeting with my case worker went well at least. He thinks that we should keep doing 9-12 am for a few months before we start doing 9 am-2 pm. After that it's full time and the goal is of course me getting a job.

Today it was hard getting up. I woke up J and then it was time to get up. I made him coffee while he's in the shower. I have promised him that for days but it haven't been done for different reasons, like that we overslept yesterday and didn't have time for coffee. But now we had the time so it's waiting for him to get out of the shower.

After the internship it's the bus to the grocery store, just need to think of something for dinner. Then home and do some cleaning, I won't have time to fix everything before I leave today. I'm thinking of curling up on the couch as well. I either sleep for an hour or do some reading. Moved a lot of e-books over to the phone and started reading yesterday.


But first of all I need to get through my internship, the last day of the week since it's easter here in Sweden. I mostly looking forward to the coffee. I don't drink any at home before I leave, my stomach doesn't like it. So I always have a cup of coffee when I get there and has made some. Lovely!

How to chock the body in the morning

As usual when I wake up I went and had a smoke, woke up the munchkins and then I woke up J. The first thing he did was remind me that he didn't have to get up just yet, they start at 10.30 am. Haha, talk about me feeling stupid. I let him continue to sleep and went here insted.

Thursday is such a boring day. There is never anything fun happening. Today is the same as usual; laundry, dishes and cleaning. That's how much fun I will have today.

One good thing about it being Thursday is that it's Mob Wives. Unfortunately the last episode, then it's only the reunion left. What am I supposed to do with my thursdays? I got other shows I'm watching but Thursdays really is Mob Wives for me. I think Kalle will watch it with us, he usually does.

When the munchkins have left for school I'm gonna go back to bed and J again, I'll see if I get back to sleep or not. I feel both sleepy and not at the same time. I woke up from a weird dream five minutes before the alarm sounded and thought I overslept so the body was chocked awake. I had forgotten to take down the blinds so it was really bright and I thought that she was close to lunch. But no, she was only 6.55 am. So nice that it's sunny in the mornings, we are going the right way.

Soon it's time for sneekers

A really boring thursday

When the alarm sounded I turned it off and was just gonna close my eyes for two more minutes. But that never happens so it was a little bit longer than that. But the kids got to school in time and that's the main thing. Oh God how I long for the weekend when I get go sleep, no alarm to wake you up.

It's boring and grey outside and I'm thinking about having a cleaning day today. I need to scrub the bathroom. But that's so boring but a bit more fun now that everything is new. And now that all the walls are covered with tile it's so much more easy to keep it clean. Just wipe it insted of standing there with all the cleaning products trying to get the walls clean.

J is still sleeping and I think he will do that for a couple of more hours so I have to be a bit quiet and that means that the vacuuming have to wait. Don't know what I will do until he wakes up. I don't wanna go back to bed again because I don't feel so sleepy, we went to sleep at a reasonable time last night. Sure, I guess I could sleep but then I would wake up really tired which I usually do if I go to sleep when I'm feeling like this.  I'm always moer tired after I have slept than before.

Tonight it's Mob Wives as always on thursdays. My life will not be complete when it's over, this is the last season. Kalle is coming over to watch it with me as he always do, it's our thing. J was gonna sleep at his place tonight but decided to spend the night here anyway. Lilith likes. I really do hate sleeping alone. 

I could amuse myself by getting ready ad go to the grocery store. Just need to check my recipes for something to eat. But I think I'll start with a coffee.

Finally Thursday

Yesterday was an easy day. I went to the grocery store, vacuumed and did some laundry. As I will today. So nice to have my washing machine again, I think I have missed it more than having a toilet I think.

When I'm done blogging and J is finished in the shower I'm gonna get myself ready and go to the grocery store, as soon as I think of something to eat. The pantry is kind of empty so it's time to refil it with breakfast and stuff like that.

It's thursday, Mob Wives day. Kalle is coming over later to watch it with me, it´s our thing. I don't know if J will be here, he was gonna go to the movies with a friend so he'll be here later. He's coming when he's coming. Myself, I have been waiting the whole week for Mob Wives, as I always do. I think it's one of my favorite shows.

I have a toilet!!!

Yesterday I finally got the news I have been waiting for, the toilets and the shower was ready to use! No more going out in what ever weather. God how wonderful! The bathtub is coming on monday and the inspection is on tuesday. Now the only thing I'm waiting for is for them to fix the washing machine. But the toilet in the bathroom that is set on the floor we couldn't use until night because the glue had to set so we had to use the on in the little toilet and that one is on the wall and I hate those. I´m always worried that they are not proper put up so that they will fall down from the wall. Haha I know, so silly. But at least I could use the toilet in my own home again.

I'm still a bit tired even though I slept great so I think I'll get back in to bed when the munchkins have left for school. Then when I get up it´s time to get out in the snow that has come during the night, and lots of it, and go to the grocery store. Just have to think of something to eat, as always. 

Today or tomorrow they are coming to clean the bathroom and the toilet. I can hear them right  now coming in here but don't know what they will do. If they are gonna clean or fix the washing machine. But I think the washing machine will be hooked up after they have put in the bath tub so I think I have to use the laundry room on monday. I can't wait until they are done so I get to clean the hallway. Much needed after five weeks. 

Just talked to the guy who came here, he was just picking up the garbage. They will clean tomorrow and he's guessing that they will fix the waching machine on monday after the bath tub. Then I have to make a date with the laundry room so I get to wash all the bed sheets. Still got some left after last time and are gonna change this ones tomorrow again so I will have a whole lot that needs to be washed.

Parent teacher meeting and coffee

Oh my God, the new kitchen fan is so ugly. It's not adapted for my kitchen but is big, ugly, clumsy and is sticking out. But at least I have a fan now, that's how you have to think.

Leo is feeling better and can go to school today. He could have gone yesterday but I wanted to see that he really was better and not something temporary. It's good that he is going today because we have a parent teacher meeting. Someone who is sick now insted is Rasmus so I have to call his school at 8 am. J is also feeling better, he went to school yesterday when he woke up. And I was gonna be a good girlfriend and let him sleep. 

After the parent teacher meeting I'm going home to my friend Linda for a coffee. We haven't seen eachother for a while now so we have a lot to talk about. I have missed her. It's strange that we don't get to see eachother that often when we live in the same neighborhood. But she is busy with her life and I am with mine. 

But before the parent teacher meeting and the coffee I have a home that want my attention. God how I long for this renovation to be done so I can clean the hallway, it's long overdue. But now I can't because they have put in a temporary floor. So I have to wait.

My ugly fan

Let´s hope for some luck

I didn't get much sleep last night either. It was around 3 am when I fell a sleep and then back ut again at 7 am. So when the munchkins went to school I went back under the covers. That was nice.

I'm about to go to the grocery store, just have to think of something to eat. It will only be me and Leo at the dinner table today. Maja has her basketball practice so she will have dinner early. After her practice we are gonna try to get internet to work as it should.

The stuff from my internet provider came yesterday so we are gonna connect them today. I wasn't brave enough to do it on my own because if something went wrong Kalle wasn't here to fix it so it had to wait until today. We are gonna start by testing if my old router works better when we change the old switch. Then we can return the new router and I can use that money on something else. I hope so.

So much noice

Finally Thursday! That means that it´s only one day left until Friday and the handymen goes home for the weekend so we'll have some peace and quiet. Right now it's a terrible noice. And I had planed to go back to bed after the munchkins had gone to school. But if I'm lucky it will settle down soon.

I have made an appointment. Sunday 8-10 pm. The munchkins are going to their dad for the weekend so I like to sleep in so I do the laundry at night. My washing machine doesn´t work during the renovation so then it's the laundry room for me. Plus that me and J are booked all saturday, and on friday I have a meeting in the middle of the day so it will be hard to find an open spot in the laundry room then.

Today they are coming to take down the fan over the stove. But they won't put a new one just yet. It will be exciting to cook today without a fan. I don't know when they will put up a new one. We will see.

Now it's time to make sure the munchkins get to school then I will get back in to bed for a while, it's finally quiet at home. I hope it continues that way.

What a sleep in

My god, we slept for so long today. Until 12:20 pm. But we stayed up late.

They came and fixed the blockage in the sewages yesterday at least. So now we have toilets that works.

I have been grocery shopping and fixed the apartment so now everything is as it should be. The only question now is what I'm gonna do the rest of the day. I'm thinking of watching a few tv shows, but I'm not sure. I would like to keep an eye on the munchkins as well and I can't if I'm gonna be in the bedroom.

A tired day and cuddle to a movie

Yesterday was a really tired day. Only got one load of laundry done because I fell a sleep on the couch and woke up just in time to make dinner. Shit happens.

Today J is coming over. We are watching a horror movie and cuddle. Don't know yet if he will spend the night but I think that he will. I hope so.

But before that I have some stuff to do. I need to vacuum, I need to go to the store and then I have to take a shower. And pay the bills. I forgot that yesterday. Good Lilith.

I'm back!

I took a well deserved rest from the blog. When it's starting to feel like a must more than fun to update it's time to take a break.

I'm having some time to myself this week. Leo is with his dad for their summer trip and Maja is with my mom. So yesterday all I did was rest. I even took a two hour nap on the couch. I'm just so tired all the time. Being a single parent full time is hard.

Today I'm going to a movie with Kalle. We are gonna see the new Terminator. But before that I have some cleaning and laundry to do. Didn't do anything yesterday so now it's twice as much. But it was worth it.

The last day of school

It's the last day of school! But Leo still has a few weeks left at the community youth center. But he won't be there as early as school starts. But tomorrow we are taking the day off and is sleeping in.

I had trouble sleeping last night so I was in bed talking on the phone until 12.30 am before I could go to sleep. So I wasn't happy when the alarm went off at 6.30 am. Maybe I'll do like yesterday and take a nap on the couch. But before I do that I need to get some laundry done.

My new hobby

I took a little break from the blog, didn't feel like writing. But now I'm back and will try to write a bit more.

Yesterday I was watching my cousins youngest while she got her nails done. She is such a sweetheart. The baby that is lol. Nah, my cousin is great too. Why else would I talk to her 6-8 hours every day?

Today will be a very quiet day at home. Just me and my sweat pants. Maybe I'll nap on the couch, I'm getting very good at that haha. It's so boring to just be home all day every day. So my  new hobby is naping.

Todays company

It's finally time

Yesterday we were at a birthday party for my friends daughter. She turned 4 and is a little princess. We had a great time and I had two happy and tired kids when we got home.

Today I'm finally getting my nails done! It's about time, the look terrible. I have an appointment for 10 am. I need to get ready for sunday.

When I get home it's laundry time, like it always is. Leo has no clean socks left he told me just this morning. It would be great if he told me that a  bit sooner so I had time to wash them.

Getting up early

Wow I woke up before the alarm! Only 15 minutes but still.

The appointment at the doctor went fine yesterday. I got antibiotics for five days.

Today I'm gonna start the day with a powerwalk. It's not a great weather outside, but I have to. I know I will feel so much better after.

Later today Kalle is coming over to compare schedules for Majas basketball cup this weekend. It's starts tomorrow and is the whole weekend. And all the parents have to help. No fun at all.

Fuck fuckety fuck

I am so disappointed. I was gonna come today but he is sick. So no I for me.

I got another letter yesterday. This one is a bit better and he is feeling a lot better now. I was so happy! He was so sweet in this letter. I was so happy to get another letter so soon.

Yesterday was great. We went down town to meet up with my aunt so the kids could pick out a birthday present. Maja of course picked out a book, and Leo picked out a My Little Pony. Two happy kids. Then we had coffee and the kids had ice cream.

Today I'm getting my windows cleaned. I got it as a birthday present from my aunt. I don't do windows. They look worse when I'm done with them than they did before I started. But first of all I'm going on a power walk.

Just a thursday

I woke up 5 minutes before the alarm from I texting me. So I got up and made some coffee. It was only me awake at that time so it was nice and quiet.

Today I'm going home to a friend for coffee. Me and Linda have know each other since I was about 5 years old. We don't see each other that often even though we live in the same neigborhood. She lives like 5 minutes away.

This afternoon Maja has her basketball practice. They are training for the basketball cup on sunday. This time I hope that nobody's sick because I wanna go and watch her play. If she is playing, there will be only ten players.

I went and got my nails done yesterday. At a new place, not that crappy place I was at last time. And my nails look so good now. It costed a bit more but it was so worth it.

What's wrong with me

I took a break yesterday from the blog, didn't have anything to write about. But I never do.

Had some trouble getting up this morning. I keep waking up at night so when it's time to get up I'm so tired.

Today I'm just gonna take it easy. To tired for a powerwalk so that just  have to wait. Laundry can wait to. The only thing I need to do is go to the store. We are having chicken and nachos. So good.

And tonight it's time for Mob Wives! Yey! It's the last episode buhu. Don't know what I'll do without it. What will my thursdays be like?

I had breakfast today. I never have breakfast. And I didn't have any coffee. That's not like me. Not at all. Haven't had coffee since the breakfast group on tuesday. I don't know what's wrong with me.